OKAY.. So I got stood up tonite. NO phone call, no nothing.. And to be frankly honest about it, I am upset. I went and got me some jack and coke tonite. So if the words are not to par then fuck it. I just can't believe that he stood me up.. I mean after he talked to me on the phone friday and explained himself to me and told me he was going to make it up to me today.. I never once got a phone call from him.

I went into work an hr 1/2 early today. Cause David was a bad car wreck. So they needed someone to cover. I didn't mind going in cause I THOUGHT that I was going to go out with this guy tonite.. But NO!!!! NO phone call no nothing.. So I stopped by the liquor store on the way home and got me some jack and then some coke.. Then I took about 3 zanax to fuck me up and make me forget all about it.. I'm over it.. U know.. I know what I look like and I know that I am fat and ugly.. And there are FEW ppl out there that wanna be with me.. Which is cool.. I just have to find the one that clicks with me that I wann be with..

But as for Sunday.. I had a blast.. I went to church with Adrienne and Muffy.. As I told them, I'm kinda getting use to going to church with them.. After that we go out to eat.. And they make me feel so wanted. I'm sure I get on their nerves at times talking about the drama that goes on in my life.. BUt they just listen and give me good adivce... I love them so much ....
I dunno what it is... but It just hurt me that ROger would do this to me. I dont' understand it. at all..