Today was a day from hell... I worked from 4AM till 12:30 and did not get a lunch. I was trying to get out of work early so that I could go and see my uncle who is in the hospital about to die. They don't expect him to live till the weekend. And then I had to deal with the deposit at work, so I was on and off the phone with Debbie. Cause I don't really know what do to when co-workers till's aren't right and then the deposit isn't right. It was just a headache, me trying to leave early and get to the hospital.

I finally got down there and was starving, so I went to the snack bar and got me a sandwich, which was good till I got back to the room. I couldn't eat, my uncle looked so bad and I felt so bad.. I stayed there for about 3 hrs and then I had to go.. Before I left I took his hand and told him "Uncle Greg, you have to get well so you can whip my ass".. That's what he'd always say to me when he saw me "You aint too old to get your ass whipped". He grabbed my hand really tight for about a min and then let go. I'm going to try to get back down there before Sunday, my Aunt from Snellville is coming down tomorrow so maybe I'll see her before I got to work.

Anyway..... I talked to Wayne on my way to the bank and he was at work. I called him when I left the hospital around 4:30 and left him a message. I got home and was so tired that I took a nap and woke up about 10 till 7 and called him again, he didn't anwser so I left a message. He still hasn't called me. I know I tend to stress out about little stuff and I shouldn't. I just sometimes don't see things like other ppl do I guess.. I keep telling myself not to stress out, but everybody that knows me, knows that I'm just waisting my breath to myself.. lol

Well I didn't sleep good lastnite at all, I guess cause I kinda use to Wayne being there holding me.. I slept SO damn good those 5 nites. Now I just have a pillow that I have to hold, pretending. Okay.. Shuddup Phillip..*SUBJECT CHANGE*

I have to find me a J O B.... Christmas is coming up, and this year will NOT be like last year.. I will have money to buy gifts for all my friends and family. So I'll be on the hunt for job.. Well time to go to bed.. Nothing else to do.