I went walking with Muffy and Adrienne after work for the past 3 days, 4 miles each.. I"m going to lose some weight no matter what.. I mean something has to give.. Either, I"m too pushy or I'm not pushy enough. I have STILL not heard from Roger. Of Course, if I was as fine as he is. I wouldn't want anything to do with someone that looks like me.

I do have to say that I have a VERY good time hanging out with my "WONDERFUL LESBIANS!!" I am on the way to losing weight and getting a tan.. I"m off tomorrow and have nothing to do. Except I am going to walk with them tomorrow 4 more miles.
I have to be honest and tell you that I am VERY upset with the fact that Roger stood me up on Monday nite and then never called me back after I returned his message. I mean WTF did I do wrong? Is it me? Or is it Him? He was such a sweetheart and I don't understand it AT ALL. But as I have been told, it's better to let the bad parts come out now than after being together 4-5 months. But for myself, I would like to know what I did wrong..

I know I type in here at times that I am really trashed and I say things that some ppl that read this journal all the time are just like "Oh hell" or "oh lord".. But I do get carried away with somethings I say in here, but most of the time it's the truth about the way I feel about certain things and issues I have going on in my life.

ADRIENNE & MUFFY.. THANK YOU for my new jeans.. I love them.. I'm about to head to bed, cause I do not want to waste my day off tomorrow by sleeping late.. Hope everybody is doing okay..
*Still searching for answering to what did I do*..