Well.. I'm here at home. And yes, I drank me some beer.. I had a VERY stressful nite..

I was SO glad that I got to spend yesterday evening with Jason and lastnite. I kinda feel like I shouldn't even write in my journal tonite cause I could say some serious shit. I mean, Jason makes me SO happy.. Just being him, just being around him.. It makes my heart smile that there is somebody out there that cares for me and somebody that I could possibly have a future with.. I don' know too much about his past relationships and why they didn't work out..That's fine. I just know that what me and him have is Good and crazy at the same time.. We cut up and make fun of each other but then again, he's like the person I have always wanted to be with. Lastnite he cooked for me and NEVER has anybody done that for me before, it was so sweet.

It was today hard when he dropped me off at work, I didn't want to leave him. I won't get to see him again until Saturday. He tells me over and over for me to tell him what I am thinking and how I feel but then just like the person I am, I hold back and I don't do it. #1 I'm scared of pushing him away, #2 I'm scared of what his answer will be... But all I know if every second of every minute of every hour, I think about him.. He brings me so much happiness to my life..

And when I'm with him, I can't stop smiling.. He just makes me so happy inside.. And I know he make think I'm crazy or wired whatever.. It's just me.. We are going to be together for 11 days and if we get through that, then like he said we can get through anything..

"You should know, everywhere I go
You're always on my mind, in my heart
In my soul

You're the meaning in my life
You're the inspiration
You bring feeling to my life
No one needs you more than I need you

And I know, yes I know that it's plain to see
And I know that I need you here with me
From tonight until the end of time"