Well let me see where I should start...... I had to work today from 4:45 till close. My first nite closing with Jon, he was pretty good. I enjoyed it. We got out of there at a decent time. Of course I didn't want to go to work at first, cause I just didn't feel like it. I would have much rather been at Jason's in the bed with him. (Call me crazy if you want.) I am, atleast for him. Being with him and just spending time with him makes me feel so good inside. It's like we are best friends but at the same time we are boyfriends. And it feels like we have known each other for a long time. And YES I keep telling my heart to hold back and let things go as they are, I'm not rushing anything, I'm just enjoying every minute I get to spend with him. And every minute that I am away from him, I think about the next time I will see him. His smile, his laughter, his everything. I mean we are going to be together for a month and 1/2 . I just hope that he can stand it and doesn't get tired of me or anything. And You know, I keep telling myself NOT to base this on the past and I'm not. The things that Jason has said to me, I will never forget and they are in my heart and mind. As I have said before and will continue to say, Jason is a gift from GOD.. He's himself around me and I feel so good and so comfortable around him.

And YES I know Jason reads this, but as I say "This is my place to let things out and tell you about what goes on in my life".. So there is no reason for me to stop now just b/c he reads it. If there is something in here that I say that he doesn't agree with or anything I'm sure that he will tell me.

While I was at work and on break I did talk to MY WONDERFUL LESBIANS!! They are coming to see me tomorrow, Hell I haven't seen them in forever, atleast that is what it seems like. There is SO much that I have to fill them in on. I really miss seeing them at work and talking to them while I'm on break.

So, I have to be back at work at 8:45 in the morning even tho I closed tonite. It's gonna be a rough day tomorrow, I think I am going to go lay in the tanning bed to relax me... Plus I wanna keep what little bit of tan I have going for when I go to Ohio.. I can't wait, I'm sure it's going to be SO much fun.
2 MORE WEEKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

To Jason...

Since the first time I met you,
I couldn't seem to forget you.
And lately I seem to find,
That you're always on my mind.
I feel so happy around you,
And I thank God that I found you.
At first I thought of you as a really good friend,
But I realized that my feelings there didn't end.

Oh, when I see you smile,
It makes my life worth while.
And since the very start,
You have been in my heart.
When my lifes skies are dark and gray,
You chase all those storm clouds away.

I've never felt this way before,
And honestly that is for sure.
I'm so glad that we did meet,
For now my life is complete.
You're what they meant,
By heaven sent.