You know.... Maybe I shouldn't even write in my journal tonite.. So MUCH shit has went on in the past few days. 1st of all I"m single. I talked to Jason yesterday and he explained everything to me. And I have to say He was a man for calling me and telling me the things that he did. I love him to death and will NEVER forget him. Tha'ts my baby, my world my everything.. But I have to cope with what's going on..

Tomorrow Shane or Marc is coming to pick me pick me up so I can go and spend some time with them. Which I havne't in ALONG time. So it's very much needed. I just don't know how I am going to act when I get to the club, I still kinda feel like I have someone and I shouldn't be there. We'll see.. I have to say that I miss Jason something CRAZY but there is nothing i can do about it. It was his choice. He'll ALWAYS have a place in my heart FOREVER...