I found out lastnite on my way to Atlanta the whole reason that Wayne didn't want to have sex with me while we were together. It wasn't about "A relationship isn't built on sex".. It was more like Wayne was meeting ppl while he was suppose to be at a wedding appointments and having sex with them. I guess that explains the reason he liked to go K-Mart so much and the fact that he had 2 to-go plates of chinese food while I was out. And then the shirt that just appeared out of no where in his t-shirt drawer instead of being hung up like the rest of his shirts.

I talked to a friend of mine today that had been coming by work and asking about me. I told her what all happened and she said "The guilty pig always squeals first". I can see that now, plus I read this arcticle in the magazine while I was waiting to see the Dr. 6 signs of cheating... Well Wayne fit 4 out of 6 of those signs. I realized then, I don't deserve to be done like that. I have done nothing but be as good to him as I could be emotional wise, I know I wasn't financially but I never once even thought about cheating on him or doing him wrong. But look what happened to me. And like someone told me, he only bought me things b/c he felt guilty about what he was doing. Now I see it. Now that I'm out of his life and he doesn't have to feel guilty he doesn't want to help me in anyway.

Even tho, I dunno if I'm gonna have a job or not. I can't even get him to help me what so ever. He just left me to fend for myself basically. I don't care how bad someone treated me, I would never leave them and talk to them the way that Wayne has every time he calls me.