Things that make you go HMMMMMM......

I worked today from 9-5:30. After work I rushed home to make sure the house was clean incase Roger decided to come over here. Well, he wasn't sure at first if he wanted to come over to newnan since he did not get that much sleep. I understood he was tired. So I went to the store for my mom and when I got back, he called me. Said he was on his way over here cause he wanted to see me and spend time with me. He said that he could sleep tomorrow instead of tonite.

So anyway, I met him at work around 8:30, we sat outside and talked for awhile then went to RedLobster for dinner. After that we went back to work and got some more coffee, we sat outside talking and talking. I did NOT want to leave. He just says things to me that makes me feel so good.. But then again with the way that I am constantly thinking bad about myself, it's like unreal.

As soon as I got on the interstate Adrienne and Muffy messaged me on my phone asking about the date. So I had to reply to them and tell them that I was just SO happy. And even when I walked in the house, my mom asked me what was wrong with me cause I was smiling so much..

He called me when he got home cause I asked him to, I wanted to make sure that he made it home okay. We talked on the phone for a good 1 1/2. He said that he is going to come over to see me tomorrow (Sunday).. And then on Monday he wants to go see a movie.

I know that I have said some bad things in my past entries and that's just what I think at the time.. Not the facts or what I find out later on. So The entries are me, what I feel at the time. And I try to update with each entry on the things that happen in my life. And the things I say on here, are real, and honest. As it says at the top, this is my place to let things out, talk about things that are on my mind.

I do know that right now....I'm SO happy, it's like it's too good to be true. And I try to be so cautious as to what I say or do. Cause I don't' wanna fuck it up. Well it's 3am and I need to get to bed. I have to work tomorrow at 1pm.

Another Song that came to my mind!
He's irresistible
Up close and personal
Now inescapable
I can hardly breathe
More than just physical
Deeper than spiritual
His ways are powerful
Irresistible to me

Don't you think I'm trying to tell my heart what's right
That I should really say goodnight
But I just cant stop myself
Maybe I'll tell him that I feel the same
That I dont want to play no game Cause when I feel his arms wrapped around me
I know meant to say no

Can't you see whenever he's close to me
I really find it hard to breathe
He's so irresistible
His kisses are powerful
He's so irresistible