Yesterday I went up to Jason's and spent the nite with him since I was off today. Poor baby wasn't feeling good, Me, Jason, Nicole, and Brooke went out to eat. And then after that Brooke went home. Today I stayed at his apartment while he was at work. I laid out by the pool for about and 1 1/2 then it started raining so I came in. Then I fell asleep on the couch, he said he was coming home early cause he didn't feel good. I told him I really wished there was something I could do to make him feel better. But all I could do is just comfort him and hope that he got to feeling better.

At about 8pm I left, so he could get some rest and be ready for work tomorrow. Even tho I didn't want leave him, I knew I had to. Cause I wanted him to get to feeling better and get some rest. I'm going to go and spend the nite with him again on Saturday nite. I really enjoy every minute I spend with him, it's like my heart is smiling more than it ever has before. For some reason I feel this is real and true. All I want to do is make him happy.

When I'm with him, I'm happier than I have ever been before. I look into his eyes and just smile, and I hear him say "What baby". I just say "nothing".. I just look at him and think about how lucky I am to have him in my life and how happy he makes me feel when I am with him. Lastnite we both fell a sleep together, he was sleeping in my arms and I was just holding him. It was so sweet and so nice to have him in my arms. Just the little phone calls to let say hello or just the little gestures that he does to me, makes me feel so good inside.

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Ya know, i don't know what it is
But everything about you is so irresistible.

Don't you try to tell me that he's not my type
To hide what i feel inside
When he makes me weak with desire
I know that i'm supposed to make him wait
Let him think i like the chase
But i can't stop fanning the fire
I know i'm meant to say no

But he's irresistible
Up close and personal
Now inescapable
I can hardly breathe
More than just physical
Deeper than spiritual
His ways are powerful
Irresistible to me
I can hardly breathe

Don't you think i'm trying to tell my heart what's right
That i should really say goodnight
But i just can't stop myself
Maybe i'll tell him that i feel the same
That i don't want to play no game
Cause when i feel his arms wrapped around me
I know i'm meant to say no

Can't you see
Whenever he's close to me
I really find it hard to breathe
He's so irresistible
Baby you know
It's more than just spiritual
His ways are powerful
He's so irresistable