I found this poem that I thought I would put on my journal.. Kinda shows how I feel at this point in time..

If I could have just shown you how much you mean to me then
I could have died happily with the tears of joy in me
If I could have been your knight brave and donned in shining armour then
I would have been your prince and not as your friend anymore
If I could have been a stranger and not as myself to you then I might have had the courage to say wholeheartedly I love you
If I could have lived my life then you could have seen me through because all that I had ever did was for you to love me too
If I could have just seen tomorrow I would have jumped ahead of time because today it might have not ended and today you might still be mine.