Well I worked today from 12:30-9 and I thought I was never going to get out of there.. Most of the day went by really good cause I was working with Liza and Huff. We had alot of fun. I was sitting outside for lunch around 6 and this reagular customer Larry stopped by in the parking lot beside work and motioned for me to come to the car. So I went to the car, he handed me 3 collector mugs from Starbucks in London England. Said he brought those back for me, David, and Jon. I thought that was really nice of him! My boss also left me a note today on her desk stating that she was meeting with her mananger and was going to talk to her about my background check and the mileage sheet and my t-shirt. But I have already ordered the shirt, cause I got tired of waiting on her to get it for me.

Okay.... for some crazy reason I am sitting here listening to some music I haven't listened to in along time. Makes me think about ALOT of things. One of the songs is, "If I could turn back time" by Cher and then I also listened to a song that Shawnna Brooks does for me, "If you could read my mind".. Lord the thoughts it would tell. I keep trying to be the happy go lucky person that I should be to everybody but damn.. I have things I have to let out and things on my mind that I just hold in. Things that nobody knows. Just like this weekend, I was SO glad I went out. It made me feel so fucking good. Cause I was feeling like I was a piece of shit, like I meant nothing to nobody. But shit I had guys coming up to me and talking to me. That made me feel really good. But you know I left the club with the ppl I came there with, and of course I was thinking about a certain person. Who has decided they don't want a relationship. And honestly there is nothing I can do about it.

I just miss that smile, that wink, that hug.. Or that phone call, even if it's to vent about how bad his day is going. Just to hear his voice made my day all better. Whether it was to call me to vent or for him to just say hello. I had alot of fun with Shane and everybody, it was like the old days. But you know now I'm back at home to the real life. So I have to cope with it...

Anyway, I have to be at work at 7:30-4 so I think I should get off of here and get my butt to bed. Or atleast try to get some sleep..