Well... I've been out of work for almost 8 weeks now. I finally went back to the dr and he told me that I could start putting pressure on it about 2 weeks ago.. So I did, but then after walking around wal-mart with my dad from one end to the other. I was having this BAD cramp in the back of my leg. So I just toughed it out. I would walk around, used a heating pad, soaked it, etc.. Well on Monday I called the Dr's nurse and told her what was going on. She told me that I should go to the hospital and have a ultra-sound, so I did. They came out and told me that I did have a blood clot. So they wheeled me over to ER. I sat in the waiting room for 3 HOURS and then finally got back to the back. Waited 45 mins for the nurse to come in there to even say hello. Then about 30 mins later the Dr walked it. I now have to take a SHOT 2x a day for 5 days. And then I have to take a blood thinner for about 5 months. UGH.. but it could have been worse!

I spoke with my "server" manager today and told him that I wanted to come back to work by Monday. But I did tell him that I would not beable to work like I did before I left (4+ tables), I need to work my way up to the way I was BEFORE I was out of work. So I have my follow up appointment on Friday morning, we'll see how it goes. I just want to get back to work and get back to doing SOME of the things I use to do.

I have decided that I do not want to keep going out like I did before. If I wanna drink after work then I can stop by the store and get a bottle of something, spending $20 bucks is ALOT better than $80 bucks. I have things I want to do. I wanna go to New Orleans again, Las Vegas to visit Scott that's another storey! But all in all I want to do things that I use to not be able to do so much than be stuck in the bar.. B/c I have learned since I have been out that the bar is still going to be there and nothing is going to change. I'm not going to miss out on anything.

Me and Scott... hmmmm.. Things are going good.. You know I have to be honest and tell you that I am crazy about him. I haven't been this way in a long time and I know that ppl have said things or maybe think things b/c he lives all the way in Vegas. But just like I told Scott, you never know what might happen. He could move BACK here or I could possibly move there. But then again I do have to tell myself NOT to get my hopes up and stuff.. You know what if I get out there and he finds something wrong with me or if I do something that he doesn't agree with.. I did tell him that even tho we aren't together, since we are far apart we have to good communication. And if he feels like we have something then he doesn't need to get upset and shut me out for something stupid. Lets talk it out and lets make it work. That's one thing I remember about my last relationship, Justin never wanted to work things out. He just wanted to keep it bottled up inside. Well now I know why, b/c he really didn't want to be with me anyways. ANYWAY===== days go by and I tell Scott that he digs deeper and deeper into my heart, the things that he says to me, the way he acts just through the phone or text means alot to me. Just like when I was in the ER he text me just about every hour or more to check on me, even tho Shane and Chris was there with me. That still made me feel good and made me feel like he really does care for me.. I do plan on going out there when I get back to work and can get the money saved up. I have asked him to come here, b/c he says that he wants a vacation but then he tells me that if he comes here I'm gonna have to share him with alot of ppl, which I don't understand completely but oh well.. If he comes here and wants to see those ppl than he can do so, but if he chooses not to then he doesn't have to, that's just my opinion. lol

I look forward to see where it goes with me and Scott, I look forward to getting to know him and him allowing me to be in his life and me allowing him to be in my life.


I'm crazy for you
Touch me once and you'll know it's true
you'll feel it in my kiss
I'm crazy for you,

Trying hard to control my heart
I walk over to where you are
Eye to eye we need no words at all

Slowly now we begin to move
Every breath I'm deeper into you
Soon we two are standing still in time
If you read my mind, you'll see

I'm crazy for you.....

Well today it's a VERY VERY cold day.. Laura my very good friend that lived here at Monroe Place and moved to California the first week of Oct, she came back for 5 days to visit with us. So we are sitting here hanging out at the house for awhile and then gonna go to Kroger later on today.Then after that I dunno what we will do. She has dinner plans with sister @6. Shane and Chris went to Shane's mom so that they can go to Callaway Gardens to go see the Christmas lights. For me of course I'm just gonna sit here and chill out for the day.

As for the past few weeks or so, I've done NOTHING but play around on the internet, watch TV. So on and So on.. I've actually been talking to this guy Scott. He actually added me on Facebook a few months ago and we just started talking and getting to know each other over the past 3 weeks. Yes he lives in Las Vegas, but he's a total sweetheart. I've enjoyed getting to know him and see where it goes. I know he's not here in Atlanta, but hey I can travel and go out there. You never know what might happen. He seems to be really into me and I'm really into him. We talk on the phone every night before we go to bed and we talk online all the time during the day. And the funny thing is that we are both Libra's, so we think alot alike. Sometimes I go to text him or message him and say something, he's thinking it to. Plus we want the samething out of a relationship. And it's been over 2 years now that I have been single, so I'm ready. You never know what life holds and I never expected me and him to get close like we have, like I said I've enjoyed getting to know him. And plus I'm SO over these Atlanta boys, all they seem to want to do is just play games. Hell I'm 31 and I've been done playing games. I'm ready to find someone to love, to hold, to share my life with. I'm gonna insert a pic of him cause he's just TOO HOTT!! :D So we'll see where it goes and I'll have to keep it updated on here..

As for me and my leg.. I went back to the dr on Tuesday.. He told me to come back in 3 weeks but to start trying to stretch it a little every day. So I have to start doing that so that I can get my butt back into the groove of things and get back to work as soon as possible. But on a brighter note, atleast I will be getting short term disability. And that will help out a little bit.

Lastnight we had a pre Christmas dinner here at the apartment. There were about 15 ppl that showed up and we all hung out, had cocktails and just had an all over good time. I'm glad everyone enjoyed themselves.

Gonna go and watch some movies with Von & Laura. And of course chat with Scott some more ;)

Well since the last time I wrote in here it was back in May of 2009. We moved into Monroe Place apartments and have been here for 7 months. I'm still working at Longhorn Steakhouse, it's been over 4 years now.

As of right now I'm out of work, 2 weeks ago I fractured my ankle and the bone right below my right knee. I'm going to be out of work for 6 weeks the Dr said. I had surgery on the 23rd of Nov. Of course I didn't like it at all.. I was suppose to be a "outpatient" but for insureance purposes I had to stay over night. Which was fine with me b/c they gave me a morphine drip lol.

Things are really rough now, I'm out of work and not making money. I did apply for short-term disablity so maybe I can get that as soon as the dr sends the papers over to corp office. I'm still waiting on him to do that. It won't be much but it will be better than nothing at all. And I won't owe Shane so much when I do go back to work.. THANK GOD for him and Chris, I dunno what I would do with out them. They have been SO good to me since I have been out...

As for my love life......Well I'm as single as it comes. I've talked to ppl and went on dates, but just for some reason it doesn't go anywhere.. I dunno what's wrong, maybe I'm not putting alot into it or maybe they aren't intrested at all.. Sometimes I feel as tho I am content with being single then sometimes I'm not. It's been over 2 years now and I'm ready to find someone to have to hold and go on dates with, cuddle with...And plus Thanksgiving has came and gone.. Christmas is coming up, would be nice to have someone to spend it with.

Anyways.. Bella is doing good.. She had a litter of puppies, 4 total but one died a few days afterwords. I finally got rid of all 3 of them. Then Chris's dog Ms. D had puppies.. 2 days later she died.. So i'm greatful that Bella still has milk that she can feed the new puppies. After it's all done and said, I'm going to get Bella fixed so that she can't have anymore pups. One litter was ENOUGH lol..

My parents are doing okay.. Mama still has alot of problems with her back and a bunch of other things. I just wished that she could get off some of her medicine, I think that she takes WAY too many.. But you can't get her to go and get detox. She won't do it. AT ALL... As for daddy, he just has hip replacement surgery about a month ago, but he seems to be healing quick. I got to spend Thanksgiving with them and I even spend the night. Shane came and got me the next day to bring me home. It was nice to hang out with them for awhile since I don't get down there that much anymore.

Well I'm gonna be out of work for about 4 more weeks and I plan on keeping this journal up more and more. Nothing else to do while i'm out besides play on the computer. And plus I like keeping a journal so that I can look back on my life from day to day.

For those of you who don't know me or maybe think you know me. This is the place that I just let out whatever was on my mind... SO to some of you that are in here, this may hurt you, surprise you, or whatever.. But it's ME.. MY LIFE.. ENJOY! PERIOD!

WOW.. it's been 4 years since I have taken the time to write in here.. I honestly forgot about it. But after looking back and reading some of my old post, I thought that I would try it again.. I am now single and have more time to do so. There has been SO much stuff going on in the past 4 years...

I'm living in Atlanta and have been for 4 years now. I work at Longhorn Steakhouse in Buckhead. I love my job and love the people that come in and see me. I was in a relationship for a year 1/2 to a guy named Justin. I had a great time with him and really loved him. He decided to end it the nite that I put my hands on his shirt to get his attention. We had been out drinking and he wanted to smoke his pot and I wanted to talk to him, well he didn't want to listen to me or give me the time of day. So I grabbed his shirt at the neck to get his attention and he said that was a sign of abuse. Well he called his mom and told her about it and she said that she would never send him anymore money or help him out as long as I lived in the apartment. So on April the 1st I moved out. And ended everything. It was sad to me b/c I felt like I lost a best friend, he was there for me through some important times in my life.. I thought very highly of him and still to this day A YEAR later I still do.. I dunno why? But I do.

I have moved on with my life... I have had my fun and I'm still having fun, loving life and loving living with my best friend Shane and his partner Chris. They are a mess. We are moving on the 15 of this month and I can NOT wait.. OH and I also got a doggie.. Her name is Bella, she is 13 months old.

She has really made me forget about alot of things and alot of my problems.. I'm so greatful to have her in my life.

I know I have more to type but it's SO late and I really need to get in the bed..

MORE TO COME...............

Well I have some pics from Saturday at Pride.. Here are a FEW pics.. lol It was a CrAZy Day at the park needless to say and I had a blast!