Well today I had to work from 10:45 till 7:00. After I got off work I came home and worked on my dads computer. I had to reboot everything. So now it's like it was when he first bought it. He was having trouble with it loading stuff on the computer.

This weekend is Pride weekend and guess what???... I'm not going. I have decided that I am going to stay with Jason this weekend since he is sick. I wanna be there for him. I talked to David about it today and David asked me "Do you think anything is going to come out of this?" And I said "Yes". He said "Well I wouldn't go, I'd stay there with Jason".. So that's what I'm doing. I then talked to my friend Misty and she said to me, "Phillip if you were sick and couldn't get out you would want him there with you, right?" And I said "Yes". So, hell.. Being with Jason is ALOT better than being at some Pride Parade. He makes me SO much happier.

So I have to work in the morning at 4AM. Then I get off work at 12:15 and my brother is suppose to take me up to his house, I just have to find a way home on Monday evening. I know all my friends are going to be pissed but they will get over it. They have to understand that I would much rather be with someone that I could possibly spend the rest of my life with than be at some Parade that comes every year. Before I leave from Newnan I have to stop and get a couple of things for Jason...

Well I need to get off of here and get some rest before work in the AM..

Today I went to "Pearl Day" at Six Flags with Kevin (little man), Marc, Wayne, & Sarah. It was a BLAST. I had a really good time even tho I didn't ride but 2 rides.

But before we could even get to the booth to pay for our tickets I turn around and there stands Roger with Colby. I was like OMG. So we went inside and everybody else was going to ride this ride and I wasn't, I thought that I would stand in line with them and talk to them until they got ready to get on, well I ended up just leaving the line after about 10 mins. Roger was right in front of us and I just felt really weird around him and very nervous. Cause I do NOT deal with drama and I'm not a fighting person. So anyway, they rode the ride and then we walked around and they rode some more rides. I ended up getting on the Super Man ride. I thought I was going to DIE. I was screaming like a little bitch and Marc kept telling me to breath or I was going to pass out. He said that my face was blood red. I was shaking SO bad when I got off that ride that I could hardly walk. So we walked around some more and they rode more rides as I sat waiting on them. I saw so many ppl that I knew from Atlanta and Chattanooga.

As soon as I got back from Six Flags I went and got my mom's truck, I wanted to go and check on Jason. He was in the ER cause he's still throwing up and his stomach is killing him. By the time I got up there, he was being sent home. But I didn't care. I still wanted to make sure that he was okay and if there was anything that I needed to do. I just wished to god that they could find something out that's wrong with him and get him to feeling better. After all those test they done there, they said that everything came back good. He has a Dr. appt. In the morning with his regular Dr. so maybe they can find something out.

Well I'm about to get my ass off of here and get to bed. I am SO tired.

Jason and Nicole came to pick me up yesterday and I went to spend the nite with him. I had a VERY good time. Nicole cooked for us and it was GREAT. Then after that we went and got in the pool. It was fun, we all were in there just having a good time. Me and Jason were all on each other and some guy came out there to the pool and went to the corner and sat down in the dark. We continued to kiss and be all over each other.

Today, we woke up and I told Jason that he needed to go to the Dr cause he still couldn't eat and keep stuff down. So, before he left to bring me home he called the store and told the lady that was working that he would be late cause he was going to the Urgent Care Center, well she said that she would work all day for him. So I went with him to the Dr. come to find out he has food poison and they gave him some meds. I was SO happy that he was going to get to feeling better. I hate it when he gets sick, even tho I run right in there and take care of him. Hell he's my BF so I have to make sure that he's alright. No matter what.

So, I'm back here at home.. :o( And I have to work tomorrow at 9:30 and then I have to work on Tuesday.. But Wednesday I am off, we were suppose to go to Six Flags, but I dunno if we are or not. Gay Days at Six Flags.. I want to go, but I don't want to go if Jason can not go..

I'm going to bed.. I'm very sleepy.

Each night I try to go to sleep
But I find that all hopes are in vain
For I can't seem to get you out of my mind
Sometimes I feel I may go insane
I'll clench my fists and grit my teeth
But neither will get you near me
So I'll anxiously wait the next time I see you
So I can see and hear you as you can see and hear me
I walk around all day and can't seem to get you off my mind
Everything I see some way reminds me of you
And every time I think of you I find myself smiling
It's you that gets me past the hard things I go through
I'll fall asleep thinking about you
And then I'll see you in my dreams
We'll be holding hands and kissing
And well be together, or so it seems
Then I'll wake up and look to see you by my side
But then I'll see just an empty space
I'll close my eyes tight and wish with everything
That somehow I'll see your smiling face