"When we're together I feel perfect
When I'm pulled away from you, I fall apart
All you say is sacred to me
Your eyes are so blue, I can't look away as we lay in the stillness
You know you're all that I live for
You know I'd die just to hold you, stay with you
Somehow I'll show you that you are my night sky
I've always been right behind you
Now I'll always be right beside you
So many nights, I've cried myself to sleep
Now that you love me, I love myself
I never thought I would say that
I never thought there'd be you"

For I never thought that I would ever find someone as wonderful and loving as Wayne. Again, I Thank You God for sending me Wayne.. He's truely and Angel sent from above.
YI love You Baby Y

Lastnite I went over to Wayne's after I got off work. It was really special! When I got there, I thought that me and him were going to go out to eat. But instead Wayne got some wine, shrimp cocktail, and we ate at home. He bought me the CatWoman movie that I wanted for my Anniversary present. We watched that and ate. I thought that was SO sweet. He really knows how to surprise me at times. I mean, he does things for me that no man has ever done before.

Today Wayne went to work around 10:30 and I stayed at his house watching tv till about 11:30. Then I got up, straighten up his room and got ready for work. I was going to stop by and see him on my way home but he was busy with clients. So I came back to Newnan and just went to different stores looking around, killing time before work. I had to be there at 3. I got to work about 30 mins early and sat outside like I normally do smoking me a cigarette.

Tonite went by pretty good, I closed with Kevin and Jan. Thank god that it's over with tho, I do not like to close. It just seems like it takes forever to get out of there at times.

I'm off tomorrow, I have to go and pick up my check and then Wayne is coming over here to spend the nite with me for the weekend. I'm gonna take him out to eat and then we are going to go see a movie, I dunno which one yet but I am sure that we will find something good to watch.

Y I Love Wayne! Y

Okay.. So it's 2am and I still can't go to sleep, I tried to lay down and just couldn't get my eyes to close. I called Wayne and left him another message on his cell phone. I just hope that everything is okay, I'm sure he just stayed at Sandi's and is going to come home in the morning. But he told me, he didn't want to have to fight the traffic, so he was going to leave tonite. I just hate it when he tells me that he will call me and he doesn't. I just don't understand, I guess that's part of me worrying too much.

Anyway... I'm going to go lay back down maybe I'll get sleepy soon.
YI love you WayneY

Well I haven't been long got home from work.. It was a rough nite, I had to close with Mary and Amber. Amber never has closed before, so I was having to teach her about closing. Nothing like what I'm use to, I'm use to everybody knowing what to do and me not worrying about it. I'm sure I'll hear about it in the morning when I get to work. But you know I'm not really worried about it.

Anyway.. I talked to Wayne at about 6:30 or 7 tonite, he said something about he was going to go home tonite and he would call me on his way. Well by the time I got home at 10 till 12 he had not called me. I tried to call him on his cell and of course I got the voicemail. I left him a message but he hasn't called me yet. And he probably won't. I have to learn NOT to stress out when he tells me that he is going to call me and he doesn't. Sometimes I just don't understand, but then again I have to understand that me and him are 2 different ppl and he doesn't think like me. I know that I think about him every second of every hour of the day. I couldn't go without calling him and every chance I get I go see him. Is that smothering him? Am I being too selfish? I dunno.. I try to show someone that I care about them and that I love them, maybe sometimes I go about it the wrong way. But you know, you don't know if your doing wrong until someone tells you.

I know I worry too much, but I can't help it.. And honestly I tell myself NOT to worry so much, but everybody that knows me. Knows that I worry about little shit. I just can't help it. The way I see it, if I didn't worry then that means I don't care and god knows I do.

As for the 2 songs I posted before this, I have a hard time telling someone how I feel, so I tend to find songs that say what I want to say to someone, or atleast let them know what my heart feels.

Well I guess I'm going to go, I have talked enough and god knows I have to TRY to get some sleep, I have to be at work at 10:30 in the morning.. But after I get off I am suppose to go over to Wayne's and spend the nite with him. That's the only thing I have to look forward to tomorrow is seeing him, god knows I'm NOT looking forward to going to work.

YI Love WayneY

"When you're feeling lost in the night
When you feel your world just ain't right
Call on me, I will be waiting
Count on me, I will be there
Anytime the times get too tough
Anytime your best ain't enough
I'll be the one to make it better
I'll be there to protect you
See you through
I'll be there and there is nothing
I won't do
I will cross the ocean for you
I will go and bring you the moon
I will be your hero, your strength
Anything you need
I will be the sun in your sky
I will light your way for all time
I promise you
For you I will
I will shield your heart from the rain
I will let no harm come your way
These arms will be your shelter
No these arms won't let you down
If there is a mountain to move
I will move that mountain for you
I'm here for you, I'm here forever
I will be your fortress, tall and strong
I'll keep you safe
I'll stand beside you, right or wrong
I promise you
For you I will
Lay my life on the line
For you I will fight,
For you I will die
With every breath, with all my soul
I'll give my world
I'll give it all"
YI Love You Wayne Y

"Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed someone so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything
To make him understand
Have you ever found someone
You dreamt of all your life
You'd do just about anything
To look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one"
Y I Love You Wayne Y

Woke up this morning feeling like crap.. I have a head cold, my nose is running like crazy. I called the dr just a minute ago and they said for me to keep taking the meds that I am on for my mouth and that should clear up the cold.

Anyway.. Wayne called me this morning about 11, what a good way to start my day off.. He's going to have lunch with Sandi and then he has other things he has to do today. As for me, I have to be at work at 3. I'm just going to hang around the house and finish washing my clothes, clean up my room a little.

Well I'm gonna get off of here, Wayne might try to call me and I don't want to miss his call.

Y I Love Wayne Y

"Someone had a hand in it
Long before we ever knew
Now I just can't believe you're in my life
Heaven's smilin' down on me
Everytime I look at you
I have to give thanks to the man up above
He sure knew what he was doin'
When he joined these two hearts
I hold everything
When I hold you in my arms
I've got all I'll ever need
Thanks to the God
It takes my breath away
Just to look into your eyes
I know I don't deserve a treasure like you
There really are no words
To show my gratitude"
Y Never in My Life did I think I could love someone SO much. Everyday with you is WONDERFUL. I couldn't ask for more, than to have you in my life.. I love you SO much Wayne.. I could never ask for more than to have you in my life!Y

Well I was off the weekend....I helped Wayne with his wedding show that he had to do this weekend. I always enjoy helping him, it seems like I learn something every time. I took some pics, but I am going to wait till I get more pics on that one CD before I get them developed. I don't want to waste them.

Unfortantly I am at home tonite.. Wayne took today and tomorrow off, so He's at his best friends house Sandi.. He called me when he got there and he's suppose to call me later. I'm sure he gets tired of me and wants to spend some time with his friends by himself which is fine with me. He hasn't said that, but I don't want to smoother him or anything. I know I'll see him this weekend, he said that he's going to come over here and spend the weekend with me. I'm off Friday and Sunday.. I only have to work till 4:30 on Saturday. If he does then we are going to go to the movies and out to eat. I still have 2 tickets that a customer gave me to go to the movies.

Tomorrow is 3 MONTHS!!!! 3 Wonderful months with a man that has showed me SO much...

Saturday after we got up, we went and looked at houses for rent. We saw this really nice house that was for rent, Wayne called twice but the ppl never called back. I hope they called him today, I forgot to ask him when I was on the phone with him. It'll be so nice to move out of here and for me and Wayne to get us a place together. Then I could "try" to cook for him and we could have our own place. Then I would get to spend every nite with him.. (YAY) lol

Anyway.. I'm going to get off of here and wait for My Sexy Boyfriend to call me. God I love him so much..The longer I'm with him the more I love him and the more greatful I am to have Wayne in my life.
Y I love You Wayne! Y

"Mama he's crazy
Crazy over me And in me life is where he said He always wants to be
I've NEVER been so in love
He beats all I've ever seen
He's crazy over me
I think he's a livin' dream
we'll there are men But ones like him Are few and far between"