Thank god today is over with. I got up this morning and was getting ready for work, come to find out my brother was BACK in jail again. He got arrested early in the morning for being at a friends house that got busted by the cops. Him and his girlfriend were both locked up. And I guess whoever else was there. Then I had to be at work by 2:45, so I left early to go get my check.

I had to work till 11:15 tonite. It went by kinda fast. I constantly was text messaging Roger back and forth. Adrienne and Muffy came up to see me. Which I was real glad cause I have not seen them in a few days. Me and Roger have a date tomorrow evening after we get off work. Prolly go out to eat and then do whatever. Sit up at Starbucks or go to a movie.
Maybe I can sweet talk Adrienne and Muffy into going with us or atleast hang out with us for a little bit.

Anyway...that's about the highlight of my day,OH besides these 2 gay guys coming through drive-thru just staring me down as I hand them their drink and give them their change. It's so funny, but then again they make me nervous cause they are staring.

It's now 2:05 Friday morning. I have been up since 5AM Thursday morning. I went to work at 6:30 and then got off work at 3pm. Came home took my mom to the grocery store and then went to Barnesville to see Roger. I just planned on hanging around with him for a little bit then coming back home. Well I stayed there from 6:30-10pm and then he invited me over to his house, I did not want to go at first cause he told me that he had plans after work. But he insisted that I come over, so I did. We sat around and talked and watched "Charmed". I had a good time and I"m glad that we got to hang out and talk. So now I'm home and about to go to bed cause I have to get up at 11 and go get my check, get it cashed and go to work by 2:45.

Well you know I have to have a song at the end.. So I have added this one.. It's old, but it's good..

Mama, I found someone
Like you said would come along
He's a sight, so unlike
Any man I've known
I was afraid to let him in
'cause I'm not the trustin' kind
But now I'm convinced
That he's heaven sent
And must be out of my mind
He beats all I've ever seen

And, mama, you've always said,
"Better look before you leap!"
Maybe so, but here I go
Lettin' my heart lead me
I think he's a livin' dream
Well, there are men
But ones like him
Are few and far between
~The Judds

And no we did not have sex... Just being with him and spending time with him was like WHOOOO........

All i'm gonna say right now is.....R O G E R! OMG

WHERE should I start?? Today SO much shit has happened.. I got up this morning and washed my truck real good, cleaned the inside of it. Then I went to Barnesville to see Roger. He then highlighted my hair and I laid in the tanning bed. I had SUCH a good time just hanging out there and watching him work. He's SO sweet.

Well on my way back which was about 6pm I got a phone call from a customer. She told me that she stopped by the store to get a drink. Well come to find out the store had been ROBBED!! I couldn't believe it. Here I am a good 1 1/2 away from newnan and couldn't get there. I was really worried about Kelly and Tristen, I couldn't believe that had happened to them. Well by the time I finally got back home Debbie called me on the house phone.. She asked me if I would come up there and help her close the store early cause of what happened, So I did. It was me, Liza, Debbie, Susan, Sharon (Dst.Mgr), Jason all cleaning up. We closed the store at 9pm. I got paid and extra 4 hrs.
So I came home and told my parents about what all happened and then I got on the phone with Mister Man...Roger. He's such a sweetheart, I really enjoy talking on the phone with him and spending time with him.
It's like I can be myself and not have to worry about anything.

Anyway.. I'm about to go to bed, cause I have things I have to do tomorrow with my mom.

OKay.. Talk about a GREAT DAY!!!! Roger came over about 6:30 and we went out to eat and then to see Van Helsing, it was great. I had a VERY good time with him today. I am suppose to go to Barnesville tomorrow so he can put highlights in my hair and of course so I can see him..

On my way home tonite he would text message with such sweet messages, such as and I quote..
"You are everything I ever wanted"
"I dont' think I will ever let you go"

Just things that I thought he would never say, and I SO keep telling myself to just calm down and take it slow. But I just feel so good when I am around him.

Anyway.. I'm about to hit the bed, and of course have GREAT dreams.. Love ya Adrienne and Muffy, Liza!!!!!

"Everytime our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
It just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams

I don't know how you do what you do
Every little thing that you do
Baby i'm amazed by you

The smell of you skin
The taste of your kiss
the way you whisper in the dark
your hair all around me, baby you surround me
you touch every place in my heart
oh, it feels like the first time everytime
I wanna spend the whole night in your eyes"
~Longstar


Another song that I really like and tells a little of how I feel..

I wanna be the face you see when you
close your eyes
I wanna be the touch you need every single night
I wanna be your fantasy
And be your reality
And everything between

I want you to need me
Like the air you breathe
I want you to feel me
In everything
I want you to see me
In your every dream
The way that I taste you, feel you, breathe you, need you
I want you to need me, need me
Like I need you

I wanna be the eyes that look deep into your soul
I wanna be the world to you I just want it all
I wanna be your deepest kiss
The answer to your every wish
And all you ever need

I want you to need me
Like the air you breathe
I want you to feel me
In everything
I want you to see me

In your every dream
The way that I taste you, feel you, breathe you, need you
I want you to need me, need me

'Coz I need you more than you could know
And I need you to never let me go
And I need to be deep inside your heart
I just want to be everywhere you are
~Celine Dion

Yesterday, I had to work from 1-9. Which wasn't bad except Roger came to see me and I only could really talk to him for about 15 mins,he ended up hanging around for about 45 mins. I felt bad cause he drove that far and then I couldn't really spend anytime with him. Adrienne and Muffy were suppose to come up there when he got there to meet him, but they got caught up in something else and I will not go into detail..LOL. But anyway, It was all good cause I got to see him and talk to him for a few mins. So of course for the rest of the nite I was just smiling from one ear to the other.

Today is Monday and I am off.. I got up early this morning and went to work out with Liza. It was pretty fun, I got a week pass so I can go back again this week. Since I am off for the next 3 days. I have a meeting at work today at 4:30, then after that me and Roger are going to see a movie.

After I went and worked out, me and Liza went to Ruby Tuesday's to eat. Then I went over to Matt's house to go with him to pay his bills and other stuff. It was real nice to hang with him, since we never get to do it cause one of us is always working when the other one is off. Roger called me while we were at Applebee's. He said he was just calling to say hello and to tell me he was thinking about me. I thought that was so sweet!!! Anyway, I'm looking forward to going to see a movie with him. Hell I haven't been out to see a movie in god knows how long.

Things that make you go HMMMMMM......

I worked today from 9-5:30. After work I rushed home to make sure the house was clean incase Roger decided to come over here. Well, he wasn't sure at first if he wanted to come over to newnan since he did not get that much sleep. I understood he was tired. So I went to the store for my mom and when I got back, he called me. Said he was on his way over here cause he wanted to see me and spend time with me. He said that he could sleep tomorrow instead of tonite.

So anyway, I met him at work around 8:30, we sat outside and talked for awhile then went to RedLobster for dinner. After that we went back to work and got some more coffee, we sat outside talking and talking. I did NOT want to leave. He just says things to me that makes me feel so good.. But then again with the way that I am constantly thinking bad about myself, it's like unreal.

As soon as I got on the interstate Adrienne and Muffy messaged me on my phone asking about the date. So I had to reply to them and tell them that I was just SO happy. And even when I walked in the house, my mom asked me what was wrong with me cause I was smiling so much..

He called me when he got home cause I asked him to, I wanted to make sure that he made it home okay. We talked on the phone for a good 1 1/2. He said that he is going to come over to see me tomorrow (Sunday).. And then on Monday he wants to go see a movie.

I know that I have said some bad things in my past entries and that's just what I think at the time.. Not the facts or what I find out later on. So The entries are me, what I feel at the time. And I try to update with each entry on the things that happen in my life. And the things I say on here, are real, and honest. As it says at the top, this is my place to let things out, talk about things that are on my mind.

I do know that right now....I'm SO happy, it's like it's too good to be true. And I try to be so cautious as to what I say or do. Cause I don't' wanna fuck it up. Well it's 3am and I need to get to bed. I have to work tomorrow at 1pm.

Another Song that came to my mind!
He's irresistible
Up close and personal
Now inescapable
I can hardly breathe
More than just physical
Deeper than spiritual
His ways are powerful
Irresistible to me

Don't you think I'm trying to tell my heart what's right
That I should really say goodnight
But I just cant stop myself
Maybe I'll tell him that I feel the same
That I dont want to play no game Cause when I feel his arms wrapped around me
I know meant to say no

Can't you see whenever he's close to me
I really find it hard to breathe
He's so irresistible
His kisses are powerful
He's so irresistible