I started on the floor Tuesday at LongHorn's. So I'm actually waiting tables and making tips. I'll just be glad when I start making some really good tips and not just $20 or $30 a shift. But like I have told myself, I have to start somewhere.

Anyway...Of course I have some drama...

Lastnite Josh decided that he wanted to have a talk with me about me and him. Well it ends up that he doesn't want to be with me as a boyfriend. He just wants a friend right now but I don't understand him at all.. One month it is this and the next it's something else and I told him about that too. I was sick and tired of him playing mind games with me. He's just on this kick of losing weight and getting ready to go fuck around in AZ when he goes to his sister's wedding. Which is fine, I mean you can't make someone be with you that doesn't want to be with you. I'm just hurt and upset. Hurt b/c me and Josh have so much in common and we want so much out of life. Upset b/c, he can't make up his mind about what he wants out of his life.

I just have to keep going and make that money. Then after the lease is up, I can get out of that house and get my own place.. I really had big plans for me and Josh and this house. But why should I make this house my house when in the end I'm just going to end up like I did with asshole. Kicked out and back home at my parents. So I have to make a change myself and not let that happen this time.

Of Course. for those of you that are wondering, My cell phone is still cut off. I haven't got the money up yet to pay the bill. I've still been trying to just make it so to speak...

I can still be reached at my email addy.. JustChillin078@yahoo.com

Where in the world should I start??? LOL

I'm still living in Douglasville, but it's even better now. It's just me and Josh at the house. We got rid of the rest of the roommates, they weren't paying bills and still sitting around the house not getting a job. So it was all on me and Josh. It's going to be hard for both of us, mostly for Josh right now because he is having to support me and himself since I just started this job at LongHorns. But after I get on the floor and start making tips (hopefully this week) things will get alot better..

My old boss from D-ville Starbucks is going to move in with us. I have to be honest and say that I have gotten really use to it being just me and Josh. But we need the help right now since we have to catch up where the other roommates left off. We are going to paint and everything but we have along ways to go before the house is like we want it.

As for me and Josh.. Well.....we are just really good friends and get along better now than we did when we were together. Yesterday was my Birthday and he went to the store and got me a red velvet cake and a card. The card was SO sweet. He has been sick for the past 3 days and really didn't feel like doing anything, which was cool with me. So I got a little drunk lastnite and passed out. lol. He got me a bottle of Tequila and some mix. Poorthing was sick and wanted to drink with me so bad he just got even worse. But anyway... I'm gonna get off of here and stop ignoring Josh. :o)~

I hope everyone is doing okay!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME (27 yrs old)