I haven't done too much today. I have felt like shit all day long. My mouth is really hurting me, I feel like my face is swollen up or I'm just getting fat. Ugh. I really need to start walking again and start watching what I eat. I think monday I am going to call the dentist and see if he can see me. I have to get something done.

Last nite me and my mom went to the next door neighbors house and sat outside with them for awhile. We drank some beers and listened to some music. That was about it. I woke up this morning about 6am and went back to bed around 7. Then I got up for good about 12, sat around the house all day doing nothing. I have to be at work by 6pm today so I figured I would rest all day today.

Still counting down the days till I get to move in with Shane and Nick. I can't wait to finally get out of this damn town. And plus I'll meet alot more ppl working at another Starbucks unless I get another job before then.
Well I'm gonna go and finish checking my email. And get ready for the nite. I hate closing, you have to do all the cleaning and all the dirty work for the AM crew. Atleast I'm getting paid that's all that matters.

OKay.. This shit sucks. I'm still up. Just messing around on the net. Counting down the days till I get out of this town! YAY! lol.

I started drinking me some beer, maybe that will relax me enough to go to sleep. We'll see.

Well I finally talked to Debbie today about transfering. I really didn't want to talk to her about it over the phone but I wasn't going to get to see her for the next few days and I needed to go ahead and tell her. She said that I would not beable to transfer till like the middle of November. So I called and talked to Shane about it and he said that was okay that it's really only a month away. So in about a month I will be OUT of Newnan. Thank GOD! She also told me that I better really think about this, cause she's alot easier to work for than Theo (the other store mgr) is. I was like okay.. I have to move, I just have to. I have to get out of my parents house and get the hell out of newnan.

So anyway, I had to work today from 10-6 and 3-close tomorrow. I also worked yesterday from 3-close. And you would never believe what happened to me. I was waiting on customers and making drinks. Well I saw this guy come in, who I knew was gay just by looking at him. So he got up to the counter and said to me "You must be Phillip?", all I could say is "Who are you?". He said "Steven" and shook my hand. I was said "Nice to meet you". It didn't click as to who he was untill a I started making his drink. Steven is Roger's Ex bf. Come to find out he had been in there 2 other times besides Tuesday looking for me. Why? I dunno. As long as he doesn't want to start any drama then I don't really care if he comes in there or not.

Today Angie this paramedic that I have known for a long time bought me the Halloween Starbucks Bear. I was so happy, we only got 2 of them in and she bought both of them. One for her and one for me.
Well I guess I'm gonna go and try to go to bed. I'm not even really sleepy.

Dear lord.. What is wrong with me? What have I done wrong? Why do I have to go through this drama of men? I mean come on.. Everybody that knows me knows I put my heart on my sleeve and try to give everybody a chance. And let them inside me, let them know how I truely am.

Honestly, I try to be a hard bitch atleast I have in the past couple of months and I don't like to be like that. It's not me. I don't like being mean and rude. I try my best to treat ppl the way I want to be treated and yet I get shitted on over and over. WHY?

I have to work tomorrow from 3-close. So i'm about to go to bed so I can get some rest. I have to get intouch with my boss soon and see if she will approve my transfer, if not then i have to find something totally different.
Hope everyone is doing okay.. *hugs* to Kelly, Tristin, Adrienne, Muffy. And whoever else reads this..

OKay.. for the past damn hour I have been trying to figure out how to get the recent pictures on my website, I even created a photo album. It's still not working. So as soon as I figure out what to do I will be sure to post them.

By the way... I have the pictures from Savannah and my Birthday. I just have to get them posted. YAY.. They turned out pretty good!
Keep checking back for the pics.

Okay.. So i'm in a mood.. And I thought I would post this song. I love it, the greatest song of all time. I know this is alot to read, but the words mean alot.

Yeah... this right here
Goes out, to everyone, that has lost someone
That they truly loved

Seems like yesterday we used to rock the show
I laced the track, you locked the flow
So far from hangin on the block for dough
Life ain't always what it seem to be
Words can't express what you mean to me
Even though you're gone, we still a team
Through your family, I'll fulfill your dream
In the future, can't wait to see
If you'll open up the gates for me
Reminisce some time, the night they took my friend
Try to black it out, but it plays again
When it's real, feelings hard to conceal
Can't imagine all the pain I feel
Give anything to hear half your breath
I know you still living your life, after death
Every step I take, every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray
I'll be missing you
Thinkin of the day, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to break
I'll be missing you
It's kinda hard with you not around
Know you in heaven smilin down
Watchin us while we pray for you
Every day we pray for you

Til the day we meet again
In my heart is where I'll keep you friend
Memories give me the strength I need to proceed
Strength I need to believe
My thoughts I just can't define
Wish I could turn back the hands of time
Us in the six, shop for new clothes and kicks
You and me taking flicks
Makin hits, stages they receive you on
Still can't believe you're gone
Give anything to hear half your breath
I know you still living you're life, after death..
Puff Daddy "I'll be missing you"..