This morning I had to get up really early to be at a meeting at the store by 9am. So after the meeting I came home and I am going to relax a little bit before going back in to work at 11:30. I have to work a double today, so I will be there just about all day untill about 11 tonite. I have ALOT of bills coming up, so I am really hopeing on making some major money.

I still haven't heard anything from Josh. I'm sure he will never call me. Which is going to have to be okay (although, it's hard). I just wished he wouldn't have done what he did, I mean he had everything going for him, cheap rent, good job, very nice furniture, and he was about to get started back in drag. But he gave all that he worked so hard for up... Oh well, to each his own..

I am going to try my best to make sure that 2006 is about Phillip and not all about these other unappricative mofo's. It's about time that I started doing for myself and doing what I want to do.

For those of you that know me, will laugh but I am going to do this for myself...... I'm not going to get into a serious relationship with anybody for a long time. I need time for myself and to do what I want to do with my life without some man trying to change that.

Well I'm going to get to going I have somethings I need to do around the house.

I HAVE INTERNET!!! YAY!!

I went by comcast today and got the modem that I needed to get on the internet. So now I can keep up with my journal and website more often.

I hope that everyone is doing okay, I haven't really heard from anybody lately, but I guess that's because I haven't been online in awhile. lol

Work is still going good. Out of all that happened with Josh, I am getting a VERY nice bedroom suite for cheap and I also got a really nice computer with a Dell Flat Screen for only $100.00 from my good friend Kevin.

Anyways I have to get back to work. I am working a double today and tomorrow. But I need to cause god knows I need the money really bad.

It's been awhile since I have had the chance to write in here. I've just been busy with work and the holidays... We had a Christmas Party at the house on the nite of Christmas Day, lots of ppl showed up..

Work is going good I suppose, I'm still making good money and really likeing my job. Just a few ppl there I don't like. A good friend of mine that I work with Megan moved in with us, so now it's 4 of us. Which makes it ALOT better, me and her trip out and we have SO much in common it's not even funny. lol

As for me and Josh....Well.. He's gone! He left Saturday while I was at work. I FREAKED OUT I didn't know what was going on, where he went or anything. I still haven't heard from him but I do know that he is on a bus headed back to Arizona. I just wished that he wouldn't have left the way he did. No bye hug or anything. After all I did for him and made sure that he always was taken care of. Just as I kept telling him he was unappreciative. And he really showed it by just up and leaving. He even took our bill money with him for the bus ticket.

I know I'll prolly never see him again, it hurts really bad but you know I just have to keep going and be strong. Hell it's happened many times before. I just never thought he would do it like he did...

So now it's me, Megan, & Tim at the house. And we are doing good. We are going to get the bills straighten out and everything.

Also.....Alot of shit has happened since the last time that I have written in here between me and Josh but it's just WAY too much to type. Plus just drama and as I said him being unappreciative.

Hopefully soon we will have internet at the house, Tim mentioned something about getting a computer and I can get internet through the cable company. Hopefully I can start to type in here more.

Hope everyone is doing okay!! ***HUGS***