How can I let you know
How much you mean to me
I know sometimes you wonder why
Are you the one that I need
As sure as I breathe
You are the one for me
And I want you to know
You fill my heart with love
My tears with joy
And now and forever, I'm yours
With everything you do
Makes my dreams come true
With all of my heart I'm yours
I think about you all the time
You're always on my mind
The thought of you brings happiness
Inside I know that I am yours
I think about you baby
Joy comes over me
And when I close my eyes boy
Your face is all I see
Your eyes tell me that I'm yours

I worked today from 4-close. I thought it was never going to end, it seemed like the nite just kept going. But I do have to say that I had the 2 best closers to close with, Jan and Ashley. They are so good to work with, they know what to do and they just do it. I feel really bad most of the time cause they are doing everything before I can even get to it.

Tonite on my way home, I got pulled over. I almost shited all over myself, he pulled me over and gave me a warning cause my blinker lights are clear and should be amber. So I will be getting that taken care of ASAP. I was shaking like crazy and just praying that there would be no bullshit..

Well I have to be back at work at 8AM and work till 4:30.. But that's okay, I know it will go by fast. Cause Wayne is coming to see me tomorrow after he gets off work and I'm all excited about it! YAY!!!! He's going to spend the nite with me! Well I guess I better get my happy fat ass off of here and get some rest. 7AM comes early!

Adrienne And Muffy... STop by and see me soon please.. I miss you guys!!! I need me some WONDERFUL LESBIAN LOVIN!!!!!

Today was a day from hell... I worked from 4AM till 12:30 and did not get a lunch. I was trying to get out of work early so that I could go and see my uncle who is in the hospital about to die. They don't expect him to live till the weekend. And then I had to deal with the deposit at work, so I was on and off the phone with Debbie. Cause I don't really know what do to when co-workers till's aren't right and then the deposit isn't right. It was just a headache, me trying to leave early and get to the hospital.

I finally got down there and was starving, so I went to the snack bar and got me a sandwich, which was good till I got back to the room. I couldn't eat, my uncle looked so bad and I felt so bad.. I stayed there for about 3 hrs and then I had to go.. Before I left I took his hand and told him "Uncle Greg, you have to get well so you can whip my ass".. That's what he'd always say to me when he saw me "You aint too old to get your ass whipped". He grabbed my hand really tight for about a min and then let go. I'm going to try to get back down there before Sunday, my Aunt from Snellville is coming down tomorrow so maybe I'll see her before I got to work.

Anyway..... I talked to Wayne on my way to the bank and he was at work. I called him when I left the hospital around 4:30 and left him a message. I got home and was so tired that I took a nap and woke up about 10 till 7 and called him again, he didn't anwser so I left a message. He still hasn't called me. I know I tend to stress out about little stuff and I shouldn't. I just sometimes don't see things like other ppl do I guess.. I keep telling myself not to stress out, but everybody that knows me, knows that I'm just waisting my breath to myself.. lol

Well I didn't sleep good lastnite at all, I guess cause I kinda use to Wayne being there holding me.. I slept SO damn good those 5 nites. Now I just have a pillow that I have to hold, pretending. Okay.. Shuddup Phillip..*SUBJECT CHANGE*

I have to find me a J O B.... Christmas is coming up, and this year will NOT be like last year.. I will have money to buy gifts for all my friends and family. So I'll be on the hunt for job.. Well time to go to bed.. Nothing else to do.

"I could lose my heart tonight
'Cause the way I feel I might
Lose control and let you stay
'Cause I could take you in my arms
And never let you go
I could fall in
love with you
So I should keep this to myself
And never let you know"
'Selena

Here I go, down the road again.. Hoping and praying that this is the one, That I can settle down with, to make my life complete.. Ever since I have met him, it's been a joy. And I look forward to the next day that we are together. For he has no idea how much joy he brings to my life, just being him.. Just to be in my life, I'm so much happier. The only thing I ask is that GOD will lead us in the right direction and help us through the hard times. For we all know that the man up above knows what's going to happen. And all I know to do is THANK him for every day that he lets me have Wayne in my life. :o)

No, That was NOT a copy and paste poem, I wrote that myself...

I'm home.... Even tho I wished I wasn't, I am. I have had the BEST past 5 Days!!!! I'll have start from Friday.. After I got off work I went straight over to Wayne's house and then we got ready and went to his best friends house in Carrollton for a little Halloween Party (which was so funny). I got to meet Sandy which is his best friend. She's a mess, I really liked her and her Bf. So Saturday morning we got up and went to Woodstock and met Mike to go to the cabin above Ellijay. We rode with him up there, got there around 1pm. Sat around and did NOTHING all day, I got in the paddle boat and went around the little lake that was in front of the cabin, just relaxed... Sunday morning we got up and went to Brasstown Resort and Spa, it was really nice, Wayne had a meeting, so I did nothing all day except read and play games. After that we came home.. So I stayed with Wayne Sunday nite and then I helped him move a bunch of his stuff to his new place on Monday after he got off work.. I'm not really in the mood to go in detail, cause I have to go to work at 4AM.. But just let me say, I am VERY VERY happy with Wayne.. Everytime I see him or even think about him I smile not only on the inside but on the outside as well..

"Lying here with you
Listening to the rain
Smiling just to see the smile upon your face
These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive
These are the moments I'll remember all my life
I found all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more
Looking in your eyes
Seeing all I need
Everything you are is everything to me
These are the moments
I know heaven must exist
These are the moments I know all I need is this
I have all I've waited for
And I COULD NOT ask for more"