Well I worked today from 7:30 till about 3. Jon let me go home early since we weren't busy. Shane is coming to get me when he gets off work so I can get away and go spend the nite with him. It'll do me good, that way I won't sit here at the house..

I went yesterday to see about getting my truck fixed. It's not going to cost me as much as I thought it was going to. So maybe after I get that fixed everything will start working out.

My My WONDERFUL LESBIANS came in to see me today and I had to give them the "911".. LOL as we call it. I haven't seen them in forever since their work schedule is so crazy.
Well I guess I better go so that I can get my things packed and be ready for when Shane calls.

You know.... Maybe I shouldn't even write in my journal tonite.. So MUCH shit has went on in the past few days. 1st of all I"m single. I talked to Jason yesterday and he explained everything to me. And I have to say He was a man for calling me and telling me the things that he did. I love him to death and will NEVER forget him. Tha'ts my baby, my world my everything.. But I have to cope with what's going on..

Tomorrow Shane or Marc is coming to pick me pick me up so I can go and spend some time with them. Which I havne't in ALONG time. So it's very much needed. I just don't know how I am going to act when I get to the club, I still kinda feel like I have someone and I shouldn't be there. We'll see.. I have to say that I miss Jason something CRAZY but there is nothing i can do about it. It was his choice. He'll ALWAYS have a place in my heart FOREVER...

You're there by my side In every way I know that you would not forsake me I give you my life Would not think twice Your love is all I need believe me I may not say it quite as much as I should When I say I love you darling that means for good So open up your heart and let me in And I will love you 'til forever Until death do us part we'll be together So take my hand and hold on tight And we'll get there This I swear I'm wondering how I ever got by Without you in my life to guide me Where ever I go the one thing that's true Is everything I do I do for you I may not say it quite as much as I should

When I say I love you darling that means for good So open up your heart and let me in And I will love you 'til forever Until death do us part we'll be together So take my hand and hold on tight And we'll get there This I swear

I actually thought that I was going to let everything out and write in my journal tonite. But I'm not.. I can just say that, I don't understand.. Why this shit is happening to me. All I do is treat ppl right and look what happnes.. Maybe I should be a bitter bitch and treat ppl like shit.. But I can't.

All I do know is I love Jason and always will. No matter what.. I have to say it took him being a man to call me and tell me the things that he told me. As I have stated before Jason is the best thing that happened to me and I will always think that. He has my heart, my world.
Anyway.. I should just go.. not even write anymore

I was going to write in my journal tonite.. but I think that it's best I dont'..

Let's just say I don't know what's going on and I really really miss the person that means the world to me..

Well I'm still up.. I just got through adding some new pics to my website. They were taken when Me, Liza, Debbie and Jon had to work the Grantville Day Fair. Now I think I am going to go get ready for work and go in early, just to hang out or whatever.. That way I'm not in a rush or anything.

I really haven't been in the mood to write in here for about a week..

Everything has just been a little crazy here recently. Me and Jason are still together and I'm still at Starbucks, even tho I haven't got my promotion yet. I dunno what's taken so long. I have to work this morning at 7am untill 3:30pm.

I was off yesterday and did nothing all day. I woke up the first time at 7am and then went back to sleep and woke back up at 12. I called Liza to see if she was still at work and she was. So I got ready and went up there to hang out with her for a little bit. Then went to wal-mart to pick up a few things and went to Ross to get me a new pair of work pants. After that I called Tristen to see if she still wanted me to come over and help her move, cause i never heard from Jason so I figured we weren't going out to eat. I went over there and helped and she ordered Pizza. After that I came home and went to bed.

Now here I am 4 hrs before I have to be at work up and can't go back to sleep. Oh well, maybe I can clean my room a little or something.