Today I have to be at work by 4pm till close. I woke up this morning around 10 and just laid in the bed enjoying the fact that I did not have to be at work early.

Yesterday I worked from 6:30-3, when I got off work I went to pick up my mom a pizza at this new Pizza Inn that just opened. After that I rushed home to get ready so that I could go see Roger. I went down there and hung out with him a little bit at work and then we went over to his house. We ordered pizza and watch American Idol. Just laying on the couch watching tv and then we fell a sleep for a little bit. I finally came home around 2am.

I woke up this morning wanting to do something for Roger so bad.. Well I did. I called the florist in Barnesville and got a dozen of roses sent to him at work. He called me when he got them and said that he was going to kick my ass LOL.. But he really like them. So I'm glad that it made his day, just like he has made my day everyday for the past month. W O N D E R F U L ! Well I'm going to get off of here and start getting ready for work.

Well I just hung up the phone with Roger......

I talked to him after he got home from leaving here and he told me that he had to go and get his sister. There is something that has been eating at me for the past couple days. And that is... I love Roger. I know most ppl that read this are gonna be like, "In such a short time?". Well when you feel something, you feel it!

He called me when he got back to his house and I talked to him for a little bit then we let each other go. Well about 15 mins later, I called him back and told him to mute the TV that I had to talk to him. So he did, well I told him I loved him. It felt SO good to tell him. It felt so right. We were both upset, but not because we were sad b/c we are happy. Anyway, I was glad that I called him and let him know, cause I would have been up all nite thinking about it over and over.

I know we are going to have a life together, we are a couple and will be together. I have even prayed to GOD to help me with this decision. I can't go through another heart break. I even talked to Misty and told her to pray for me cause I was about to let someone else have my heart, she told me that she did NOT want to see me go through what I did before and what all happened. I told her, I felt it was right and that I needed to do it.

I am going down there tomorrow to see him, I have to. Even if it's just for a little bit. So I am going to get off of here and TRY to get to bed.

Another Song that I like, Kinda helps explain how I feel.

Oh, baby, I found heaven when I found you
And this heaven is somethin' I don't wanna lose
I only know that if you ever said goodbye, I couldn't stand the pain
These eyes would cry, cry, cry like the rain

And the sun would have nowhere to shine
And the stars would all fall from the sky
Baby, please
Don't take away my heaven, oh, no

Cause this world would stop turnin', I know
And I'd lose my whole world if you go
Baby, don't
Don't take away my heaven, oh, no

Oh, baby, I saw forever when I saw you
And if you left me, I can't imagine what I'd do
Don't ever say goodbye
Cause you might as well take my life from me
What good would a life without you be anyway
If you go away


Don't take away my heaven, don't take away your love
Don't take away my world 'cause baby, I need your touch
Baby, don't
Don't take away my heaven, oh, no

Please don't take away my heaven
Please
Baby, don't, oh, no
Don't take away my heaven, oh...

Don't take away my heaven, don't take away your love
Don't take away my world 'cause baby, I need your touch
Baby, don't, oh
Don't take away my heaven, oh, no
~Aaron Neville

Everytime you're near baby
I get kinda crazy in my head for you
I don't know what to do

And oh baby
I get kinda shaky when they mention you
I just lose my cool

My friends tell me
Somethin has come over me
And I think I know what it is

I think I'm in love
I've been doin silly things when it comes to you
I've been tellin all my friends what I feel for you

Just the other night baby, I saw you hangin
You were with your crew
I was with mine too
You took me by surprise
When you turn and look me in my eyes
Boy you really blow my mind

I don't know what's gotten into me
But, God, I think I know what it is

In love, boy I think that I'm in love with you
I've been tellin all my friends what I feel for you
I think I'm in love
Boy I think that I'm in love with you

Somethin strange has come over me
Got me goin out of my mind
Never met a guy like you before
You make me feel special inside

Boy I think that I'm in love with you
I've been doin silly things when it comes to you
I think I'm in love
~Jessica Simpson

Everything is going great. I hung out with Colby Rogers best friend yesterday and we went to Macon mall, then I went over to Rogers after he got off work.
Today I had to work from 7-2 then I came home, took a shower and took a nap. Roger came over after he got off work, highlighted my moms hair. We sat around talking shit. I really enjoy EVERY moment that I spend with him. He's so sweet and tells me all the time how much he enjoys being with me and how glad he is that he met me.
Certainly makes me feel wanted and makes me feel like no other man has made me feel before. Even my mom said "I really like Roger, he's a sweetheart". I told my mom, "Yeah, he is..More than you know"... So I put the song above, just to give you guys an idea of how I feel at this point in this relationship.. I am SO fucking happy right now and I have been for the past 4 weeks. Happy about life, everything...

Today is Tuesday and I just woke up about 30 mins ago. I'm going to go to Barnesville today and hang out with Colby, Rogers best friend. Yesterday I hung out with Tiffany a girl I work with and went to lay in the tanning bed. I got kinda red, so I was told not to lay in it today. Friday nite me and Roger went out to eat at this Sushi and Steak place in Newnan and then went to Blockbuster to get a movie, came back to my house and watched the movie. Saturday I had to work late so I didn't get to see him. Sunday I worked till 4:30 and then went over to Rogers. We went to Atlanta to pick up Colby from the airport. And yesterday Colby and Roger came over here to hang out.

Everything is going really really good between me and Roger. He makes me feel so good about myself and everything. I love being around him and it's so hard to leave him when it's time to go home. So yes the past 3 1/2 weeks have been great!! I'm going to go now and get ready to go to Barnesville.