Today I had to work from 6:15am till 2:15, Susan let me leave early. After that I went and laid in the tanning bed, cause I don't wanna lose this tan that I have.

Well I came home and tried to take a nap but the phone kept ringing. So I got up and got dressed. Then I went to see Jason at work.

We were waiting on a pizza to be ready so we could take it home and eat. When his EX bf walked in with one of his friends. I knew it was his ex before he ever said anything to me, cause I saw a picture of him at Jason's house. I did not know what to do. All of the sudden I got really really nervous, And I couldn't hide it. After they sat down, Jason went to talk to them at their table for a little bit. I was dealing with it. But then again I just wanted to get up and walk outside so I could smoke. I just didn't know how to act, I had never met the guy before. Well Nicole comes over to my table and asked me if it was alright if they sat with me. I didn't know what to say but okay. So they came over to my table and sat down. I just sat there and then Michelle called me so I was on the phone with her for a min. After that they started asking me questions on how me and Jason met and how long have we been seeing each other. First off I thought it was none of their business, but then again I was thinking that Jason told me he was friends with his ex, so I just went along with it.

Anyway...Finally the pizza was ready and Jason was ready to go. Thank God, cause I was too. I know I don't have anything to worry about, but there is still that concern there. So we went back to Jason's apartment and hung out for awhile. We drank a couple of beers and talked about different things. He kept appologizing to me for them coming up there and I told him that it was a public place, they are allowed to come in there. It wasn't his fault at all, he didn't know that they were going to show up. He's such a sweetheart, it's like the more that I am around him the more I like him. But like I said before it's like I have known him for more than 2 weeks. And just like I told him before, What happened in the past is the PAST so I'm not worried about it. Cause God knows I have done things in my past that I am not real proud of.

He's going to take off Wednesday before Pride to go with me and my friends to Gay Days at Six Flags also known as Pearl Day at Six Flags.. I can't wait, maybe I'll ride some rides I have never rode before. But who knows.

I have to say it over and over and over.. I'm so glad I met Jason and I'm really glad that things are going good for us. Just when I hear his voice or see him my heart smiles. And all I wanna do is make him happy, cause as long as he's happy then I am happy. "That boy has got me lookin so crazy right now".. lol

This is a song with meaning.. I have taken out the parts that don't matter..

I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is YOU

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is YOU
Reason ~Hoobastank

Well yesterday I had to work from 8:30-4:15 and then after I got off I went to Jason's.. We grilled out and had a pretty good time. Then me and Nicole started drinking the Abour Mist that she bought..

He's my sexy baby. He's SO fucking hot and SO sweet. I enjoy EVERY minute and EVERY second that I spend with him..

Just when I thought that nothing was going right for me. Me and Jason found each other. It's going so good.. In away I feel like god sent me him to make me realize that there is someone out there for me. And I see it when I am with Jason. It's like I can NOT get enough of him, I just love being with him, looking at him, waking up against him is the best thing.. When I'm with him it's like I forget about everything.

Today I was off, I sat around the house most of the day doing nothing. Around 4:30 Jason called me to let me know he was out of his meeting. So I went up to my work to meet him, we then went back to his house. Nicole fixed some kick ass dinner. We watch a movie that I brought up there, well atleast some of. Me and Jason fell asleep on the couch together. I have to work tomorrow from 9:30-4 and then I am going to go up there and we are going to cook hamburgers and hotdogs. I will spend the nite up there since I am off on Thursday. I can't wait!! Well I am really really sleepy and I'm about to sign off of here.

I’m dreaming of your face

I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it’s only you and me

The miles just keep rolling as the people either way to say hello
I hear this life is overrated but I hope it gets better as we go

I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams

And tonight girl it’s only you and me

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
it gets hard but it won’t take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it’s all said and done
it get hard but it won’t take away my love

I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me

Well I went to work this morning at 6:30 and got off at 1:30. Then I came home for a little bit and laid in bed thinking about what I wanted to do since I am off tomorrow. So I talked to Jason and told him that I wanted to come up there and see him. At first I told myself I was going to wait till Wednesday, but after talking to him I just wanted to go up there and see him even if it was for a little bit. So I went up there and hung out at his work for awhile. I went and got him some gas in his truck and then went to Burger King for him and Nicole, so they could have something to eat besides pizza..lol

Nicole got the pics developed from her camera that we took to the Braves Game.. They ALL turned out really really good. So Jason gave me some and I put them in frames in my room. I wished I had a scanner so I could put some on my website. But we will take some with Jason's digital camera and then I can put them on there.

I'm really looking forward to seeing where this goes between me and him, I know that it's only been a week. But the weird thing is, it seems like we have known each other longer than that. I just feel so comfortable around him and I have such a good time with him and Nicole. I am suppose to go up there tomorrow and hang out with them after he gets out of his meeting.. He's so sweet and I don't' feel like he would hurt me at all. And that's such a good feeling, especially how the last guy acted from the START. But we won't talk about him, cause I have moved on to something MUCH more better.. Sexy boy! And ppl tell me to take it slow, well we are.. I mean I have no need to rush anything. All I want is Jason to be happy with me and me be happy with him. And so far it's looking DAYUM good.. The way I see it right now, is I enjoy spending time with him. Me and him getting to know each other, that's the good thing about a new relationship, your constantly getting to know each other. And so far, I'm happy with everything.

Well I guess I'm gonna get off of here cause he's suppose to call me when he gets home.

Today I did not do too much of anything. I went to the store with my mom and I helped my dad put a new part on my truck. Washed my truck and cleaned the inside.

I did talk to Misty this morning and she told me all about the DRAMA after I left. The cops ended up coming over there to straighten everything out. Come to find out Andy went across the street yelling at his neighbors who are black and then to some other ppl. I like lord thank god I was not there.

Right now I'm listening to some music and talking to Jason online, sending him some pics of me. He said he wants to print them out. I just hope the printer doesn't explode.. lol
He's a real sweetheart, it's going to be interesting to see where this goes.

Yesterday was really fun!! I went over to Misty's house around 3:30 with my mom to Haley and Kane's birthday party. Andy and all his brothers were there and Misty's family was there. We started drinking around 4, hell Andy started before I had even got there. So anyway, after the kids opened their birthday presents we all sat around talking and BSing..

Jason got down there about 6 and I had already had about 4 or 5 beers. After he was there for about an hr or so, my mom went home and picked up my dad to bring him back up there. Well after they got back, Me and Jason went to Pizza Inn to get some pizza for mama and daddy. I stopped by work and introduced him to everybody that was working. After that we came back to Misty's and stayed there for only a little bit. When I asked Andy where Misty was he was just said "inside". And I could tell by the look on his face that something had happened. So I went inside to talk to Misty and she was all upset, of course Andy was drunk and they had got into while I was gone. The next thing I know Andy is going to the neighbor's house to get more beer, why? I dunno cause there was plenty at the house. Well he was taking awhile so Misty drove up there to see what was going on and of course when they all got back it started. He started yelling and cussing Misty outside and on and on. I went inside to get Kane to sleep and when I came back out Andy was fighting with his brothers and I mean all 4 of them were just going at it. Slamming each other up against the truck. Well I told Jason that it was time for us to go.. I don't like being around fighting.

Me and Jason came back here to my house and hung out with my parents at the pool for awhile. I ended up getting in the pool to clean it. And then Jason got in, after that my dad got in.. lol. Then My mom was giving my dad a kiss on the deck, the next thing I knew she was in the water, clothes and all. It was so funny..

So anyway, Jason spent the nite and had to go to work this morning. I'm glad he came all the way to BFE to hang out with me even tho he knew he had to get up so early. But that's okay cause on Wednesday when I go up there we won't have to get up so early. I really enjoy being around him and hangin out with him.