Will You Ever
I don't think you will ever fully understand
how you've touched my life
and made me who I am.
I don't think you could ever know
just how truly special you are
that even on the darkest nights
you are my brightest star.
I don't think you will ever fully comprehend
how you've made my dreams come true
or how you've opened my heart
to love and the wonders it can do.
You've allowed me to experience
something very hard to find
unconditional love that existsin my body, soul, and mind.
I don't think you could ever feel
all the love I have to give
and I'm sure you'll never realize
you've been my will to live.
You are an amazing person
and without you I don't know where I'd be.
Having you in my life
completes and fulfills every part of me.

I Asked God
I asked God for a flower, he gave me a bouquet
I asked God for a minute, he gave me a day
I asked God for true love, he gave me that too
I asked for an angel and he gave me you.
Y I love You Wayne! Y

Well......Yesterday was a day from hell.. Me and Wayne had a major disagreement and lots of other things happened but we worked it out and we are okay now. (Thank You God).

I went over to see him and spent the nite with him lastnite, then I had to be at work today at 3pm untill close. I had a pretty good nite. I had to close with Aron and Caroline. My WONDERFUL Lesbians stopped by to see me today and so did Yolanda.. It's always good to see Adrienne and Muffy and of course Yolanda. That's my black sistah.. Adrienne and Muffy want me and Wayne to come over one weekend and go out to dinner with them. I told them that we would, just as soon as we got a chance to. I am off Thursday and then I have to close again on Friday and Saturday.

I have been on the internet looking for some poems and I have found some that I thought I would add to my journal entries. It's late I know, but I can't sleep.. I miss him so much when we aren't together. I am going to get up early and get ready and go see him tomorrow while he's at work. I can't wait, everytime that I see him my heart just smiles over and over.

Anyway.. I'm about to hit the bed I guess. The sooner I go to bed the sooner the morning will be here and I get to see Wayne.

I love the way you look at me,
I love the way you kiss me,
Your lips so soft and smooth.
I love the way you make me so happy,
And the ways you show you care.
I love the way you say, "I Love You,"
And the way you're always there.
I love the way you touch me,
Always sending chills down my spine.
I love that you are with me,
And glad that you are mine.

Y I love You Wayne, with all my heart! Y

Well I worked today from 12:30-8. Wayne called me around 1:30 at work and let me know that we got the house!!!! I was SO excited. I can NOT WAIT to start working on it and moving in. Excited 1st of all that Me and Wayne will have "our" own place and also excited that I will get the fuck out of Newnan. I"m gonna still work at Starbucks, but I am also going to try to go back to school and work part time.

It's just really exciting that I'm about to really start a life and live with the man that I love so much. And it's also "option to buy". So that would be great. Also I can have my greatdane!!!! AND my fish aquirium! Now If I can just get some money back from my taxes I'll be set..

I am off tomorrow, I have to go to the Dr at 9:30 and then I am going to go over to Wayne's. Prolly go to his work and hang out for awhile. I always love to go and watch him work, it's really intresting.

Anyway.. He's suppose to call me in a little bit and I don't want to miss his phone call.

Well I layed down at about 12 and I couldn't sleep so I thought that I would write in my journal right quick.

I had a great weekend. I had to work Saturday till about 4pm. Wayne came over Friday after he got off work and stayed here till tonite about 8:30pm. Saturday I had to work till 4pm and then after that we went out to eat at Chili's after that we went to the Alamo. I thought that we were going to go and hang out for awhile and have a few drinks. Wayne didn't want to drink anymore, so I ended up drinking his drink after drinking mine. We played this game that sat on the bar for about 30 mins and then we left.

Today we got up and Wayne called some ppl about looking at houses. We looked at about 6 houses today. We found one that we liked, but it was a little expensive and it was kinda out of the way. Then we found another one that was about 5 mins or less from his work. It needs some work, but the man is willing to take that off the rent. I think it would be a good idea, it also has backyard that is fenced in. That way when we get a dog it can stay outside while we are at work. And its a little cheaper than the other place, plus it has the option to buy. I guess I have been watching too much TV shows, I wouldn't mind having a place that you could work on and add some touch up too.

Anyway... I'm at home tonite and Wayne went home tonite cause he might have meetings in the morning. I really didn't want him to go of course, but he had to. I'll be glad when we get a place together, that way we can have ppl over and also beable to cook for each other. Well I"m about to go, my baby's suppose to call me before he goes to bed. I don't want to miss his phone call.

I have to work tomorrow from 12:30-8 and then I am off Tuesday. I have somethings I have to take care of.

Y I Love Wayne! Y