I have honestly been upset most of the day today b/c Jason is sick and I have tried everything that I know to help him to feel better. U know when you are with someone and you care about them, you worry about them when they are feeling down or sick.

I have to say (prolly again) that for the past 3 weeks, I have been the happiest person, going to work in the best mood and looking forward to what the next day brings. All b/c I have met Jason. And the little things that he says to me means so much to me. I have always been the type that the little things mean the most to me. I could care less about money or whatever else. Just being with him and spending time with him at his house on the couch or in the bed (not sex) means SO much to me...

When I'm in a bad mood at work, all I have to do is just hear his voice and it's like everything else around me doesn't matter. Yeah honestly I get grief from my friends about how I have a BF now and I am on "lock down".. But you know what... I don't really give a shit.. I am happy with Jason no matter what they say. And all my friends that have met him are so glad that me and him are together. They tell me that they are glad to see me happy.

I miss him so bad right now... Being in my bed without him to cuddle with.. I get to go and see him tomorrow and we are spending the nite together. I LOVE when I stay with him, we fall a sleep in each other arms..

Well exactly one more week and PRIDE weekend will be here, I can't wait. I hope that it is as good or better than the one last year. I took off Wednesday to go to Pearl Day at Six Flags, but I doubt I go cause it is 45.00 per ticket and I don't ride that many rides to pay that much.

I have to go I have to be at work at 7AM, so I need to get some sleep..

Adrienne and Muffy I love you guys SO much.. And I miss you.. Can't wait till you meet Jason..

Yesterday I went up to Jason's and spent the nite with him since I was off today. Poor baby wasn't feeling good, Me, Jason, Nicole, and Brooke went out to eat. And then after that Brooke went home. Today I stayed at his apartment while he was at work. I laid out by the pool for about and 1 1/2 then it started raining so I came in. Then I fell asleep on the couch, he said he was coming home early cause he didn't feel good. I told him I really wished there was something I could do to make him feel better. But all I could do is just comfort him and hope that he got to feeling better.

At about 8pm I left, so he could get some rest and be ready for work tomorrow. Even tho I didn't want leave him, I knew I had to. Cause I wanted him to get to feeling better and get some rest. I'm going to go and spend the nite with him again on Saturday nite. I really enjoy every minute I spend with him, it's like my heart is smiling more than it ever has before. For some reason I feel this is real and true. All I want to do is make him happy.

When I'm with him, I'm happier than I have ever been before. I look into his eyes and just smile, and I hear him say "What baby". I just say "nothing".. I just look at him and think about how lucky I am to have him in my life and how happy he makes me feel when I am with him. Lastnite we both fell a sleep together, he was sleeping in my arms and I was just holding him. It was so sweet and so nice to have him in my arms. Just the little phone calls to let say hello or just the little gestures that he does to me, makes me feel so good inside.

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Ya know, i don't know what it is
But everything about you is so irresistible.

Don't you try to tell me that he's not my type
To hide what i feel inside
When he makes me weak with desire
I know that i'm supposed to make him wait
Let him think i like the chase
But i can't stop fanning the fire
I know i'm meant to say no

But he's irresistible
Up close and personal
Now inescapable
I can hardly breathe
More than just physical
Deeper than spiritual
His ways are powerful
Irresistible to me
I can hardly breathe

Don't you think i'm trying to tell my heart what's right
That i should really say goodnight
But i just can't stop myself
Maybe i'll tell him that i feel the same
That i don't want to play no game
Cause when i feel his arms wrapped around me
I know i'm meant to say no

Can't you see
Whenever he's close to me
I really find it hard to breathe
He's so irresistible
Baby you know
It's more than just spiritual
His ways are powerful
He's so irresistable

It's 15 mins till 5 in the morning. I woke up about 30 mins ago, I fell a sleep lastnite sitting up in my bed waiting on Jason to call me when he got home from leaving my house. I woke up this morning still sitting up in my bed, my neck was killing me when I first woke up. I wished I wouldn't have, cause I didn't get to talk to Jason before he went to sleep. But he called my cell phone and left me a message letting me know he made it home okay.

Yesterday I worked and then came home to help my dad work on my truck. We drained the radiator and flushed it. Then we put some more antifreeze in there and my check engine light went off. So I am praying that will help my truck not to run hot. Today I have to work from 8am till 4 then I am going to go up to Jason's and spend the nite with him since I am off tomorrow. Everything else is going okay, I suppose...

My friend Les called me lastnite, he use to live with me when I lived in Chattanooga and I haven't talked to him on the phone since he left from there. It was nice to hear from him, he's gonna come down for Pride Weekend.

Well I'm gonna go and TRY to go back to sleep..

Well I had to work today from 9:30-6:00.. I thought today was never going to end. After I got off work I came home and tried to take a nap but that wasn't happening cause my mom was on the phone the whole time. Then I came in my bedroom to play on the computer and Jason called me.. I miss my sexy baby so much, I mean just being with him, touching him, knowing that Jason is there with me means so much to me.. He's so sweet to me and I just can't believe that me and him have found each other, it's weird in away, cause I feel like we have known each other longer than we have. He's so special to me and I have to honestly say that the feeling I have for Jason is like no other. To me, he seems real and honest. And All I want to do is treat him right and give him what he wants in a relationship. I can't get him off my mind and it kills me to be apart from him. But I know in my head that we both have different jobs and time to ourselves.

As I said before, I feel GOD sent me Jason.. And I am SO glad he did. I have been SO freakin happy with Jason, happier than I have ever been with anybody else. And I mean that from the bottom of my heart.. That boy just drives me crazy.. My SEXY Baby..

I don't need a lot of things
I can get by with nothing
Of all the blessings life can bring
I've always needed something
But I've got all I want
When it comes to being with you
You're my only reason
You're my only truth

I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven's gate
There's a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you
You're the hope that moves me
To courage again
You're the love that rescues me
When the cold winds, rage
And it's so amazing
'cause that's just how you are
And I can't turn back now
'cause you've brought me too far
"I need you" ~Leann Rymes.

Well tonite went by SO slow.. Even tho I didn't work that many hrs. I guess mostly b/c I was rushing it along. After I got to work tonite about an hr or so, Liza came up to see me. We stepped outside and talked for a little bit. I was REALLY REALLY glad to see her, especially after what she had to say to me. :o)

So on my way home, my baby called me and we talked for a little bit, then he called me after he got home from work. I have to say that I'm really glad that my parents like Jason. That makes me feel good.. It's cool to see me and Jason and my mom cutting up acting crazy. And all my friends that have met him say that he is really nice. Well Saturday nite I heard this song that makes me think of Jason and I thought I would post it on here.. Cause everybody that reads this knows I love some music..

Baby, tonight we can close the door and lock ourselves inside.
take time... to feel.... I don't want to miss the chance to be so real the days all fly away and I forget the truth
but everything that matters... is in this room

When you lie next to me... breathing the air I breath
we don't have to speak.... just be
loves a precious thing.... don't want to waste a day
or one more minute.......... without you in it
life is so sweet........... when you lie next to me

My heart, is yours..... every part of me still wants to give you more, more time to love.....cause you never know when life will leave us, I wanna take in all the beauty here..ooh... let the world around us....just disapear

Well Jason just left. He came down yesterday afternoon and spent the nite here at my house. I'm really glad he did cause he got to meet Liza and my boss. After he got down here yesterday we laid down for a little bit cause I was tired from working the little festival that Grantville had, it was SO freakin hot. I was there from 8:30-1 and then we went back around 4 cause my boss called me and said that they were ready to load up the stuff. Well me, Jason, & Liza got over there and she said that we couldn't do it just yet, we had to wait till 6. So Debbie and John left, we all stayed there till about 5:45 and started loading the stuff up. Then we went to work to unload it. We were sweating our ass off. So anyway, me and Jason came back to my house and took a shower, then went over to Misty's house cause she called when Jason was in the shower and told us to come over there. We all sat around and was drinking beer and shootin the shit.

Then me and Jason came back to my house and my mom was here. Well we kept drinking, well I went out side to sit in the swing cause I had some stuff on my mind. Well my mom and Jason come out there and sit with me, which was cool I didn't mind it at all. So we ended up sitting at there for awhile and then we came inside. Momma went to bed and we sat up in my bed just talking, we didn't go to bed till about 4am. I have to say that I did tell Jason some serious stuff lastnite and I just hope that he took me serious with everything I said even tho I had been drinking. Cause I meant it and I do remember what all was said.

We woke up today around 12:15, laid in the bed just talking and stuff. He has to be at work by 5 and I have to be at work by 6.

As for my wonderful Lesbians, well I haven't' heard from them in a few days. Muffy called me the other day and we were talking, I haven't seen Adrienne in a few days, her work schedule has her working crazy hrs.


PRIDE is only 13 days away!!!!!