Today I really haven't done so much so far. I woke up this morning from a dream of my ex and not the current one either.lol....It was weird, but good..

I got my check in the mail from Georgia Power and Scana, I actually thought about going out for a little bit tonite. By myself, I just got an email from Charlie Brown's Show. Thought I might go and check it out. I don't have to be at work till 12:30 tomorrow so I could sleep a little late if I decided to.

Anyways.. I'm gonna work on posting some more pics. Good thing is I got ALOT of compliments about the ones I took lastnite and posted.

Today was Great.... I woke up early this morning (6AM) and took my mom to the hospital, she ended up not being able to have the test. So I came back home and took a nap before work. I slept about an 1 1/2 and then I got up to get ready for work. I worked my little 6 hrs and then went to get my hair cut. After that I came home and took some pics of myself so that I would have some to post on my website, profiles or whatever. Since I have all of these disc that I need to use up that came with my camera.. I'm gonna go out this weekend prolly and take my camera with me, it's always good to let other ppl see how much fun you are having when you go out.

Since I worked late, I got to see some more old customers and they were asking me "Where have you been, I have missed you".. And I even had this one girl waiting on me to get to work so that we could talk before I came in. I ended up giving her my number so that we could hang out sometimes. Hell her boyfriend knows he has nothing to worry about with me..

Lastnite while I was online, I swear to you I had like 4 ppl ask me "Why are you single"... And I just avoided the answer. I didn't have time to tell them everything and didn't want to ruien my nite.

My WONDERFUL Lesbians came to see me today.... I really love them alot, they are always there for me when I need them. They are always checking up on me, Like they are my mothers or something.. Makes me feel really good..

Well I'm gonna get off of here.. And go to bed.. I have a DATE Saturday nite!!!! He's gonna take me out and then we are going to go see a movie.. Actually kinda excited about it..

Today has been kinda hard.... It just seems like today the radio was playing every fucking song that I couldn't listen to. And since I was off, I could be at the house playing with Sabastian. I really miss him, coming home and knowing that there would be someone there waiting on me to get home that loved me. Even if he was a dog, he loved it when I came home from work. And I hated to leave him. He was like me in away, he wanted alot of attention. But I gave it to him, every minute I could. That's okay tho, I'm gonna get me another dog. I have been looking in the paper and stuff.

I have to take mama to the hospital in the morning for some test and then I have to be at work by 3pm, I"m only working till 9 which is good. I think I'm off on Friday. I'm gonna go and check out this gym that I got a free weeks pass to, a customer gave me. Like my WONDERFUL Lesbians said "I need to take time for Phillip now".. Hell I've been taking time for somone else for the past 5 1/2 months, I need to do what I want to do and take care of myself.

So since I have lost 15lbs and i'm trying to tan, I should join the gym to keep the weight off and plus I can look at all the hot straight boys working out to make me want to work harder. And hell who knows maybe it could a Queer As Folk scene in the steam room.. lol

Well it's been along day.... I didn't sleep good lastnite again. But of course I haven't heard from Wayne so I guess he has nothing to bitch at me about since he hasn't called me. You know if it was me breaking it off with him, i'm sure he'd be calling me left and right but since he thinks he did the right thing and left the person that loves him more than anything else. He doesn't bother to call me to say "Hello" or "How are you doing".. Hell Roger even does that, he called a couple of weeks ago to check on my mom and we talked for awhile. It was nice, he said somethings to me that made me realize some other stuff..

I have a wedding to go to, I got my invitation in the mail today, a girl I use to work with is getting married on May 21st so I will be there. I went by work today and requested that day off and Pride weekend off.

Well I'm gonna go and try to go to bed.. I will post more pics as I get time.

You know how I am.... Songs will tell everybody exactly how you feel, or atleast give them an idea... So I had to post a song on here, I haven't inawhile. Someone emailed me and told me that my journal was "All mushy".. That's b/c I was with Wayne and had nothing but good things to say..

"It was cool, but it was ALL PRETEND
You're WERE dedicated, you took the time
Wasn’t long 'til I called you mine
All you’d ever hear me say
Is how I picture me with you
That’s all you’d ever hear me say
But since you been gone
I can breathe for the first time
I’m so moving on
Thanks to you
Now I get what I want
How can I put it, you put me on
I even fell for your stupid bullshit
How come I’d never hear you say
I just wanna be with be with you
Guess you never felt that way
You had your chance, you blew it
Out of sight, out of mind
Shut your mouth I don't have to take it anymore".

PICS ARE POSTED...... There is one on my main page and about 5 on my "Out and About Page II".. Plus I have added some of Shawnna on her page. I ended up taking about 75 pictures lastnite. I thought it was going to take me forever to get them resized and posted on my website but I did it. I didn't post all of them yet, I still have ALOT more that I have to put on there.

I'm just really sleepy and tired. But it was worth it, I had a great time lastnite. Even tho I have no morals or self respect, since I go out to the bar to have a good time. Now that I don't have someone to stay home with and have fun with. But that's all Bullshit.. I do have morals and self respect, I'm just doing what Phillip wants to do. I don't have anybody to answer to or anybody to lie to me and tell me "I care about you". Which is just blowing smoke up somebody's ass.

I'm off tomorrow Thank God.. I was glad to go back to work, but I want a day off now lol.. I have to go to Newnan tomorrow for my mom and pick up her meds. She's gonna have to have surgery AGAIN. Something about her back and the nerve that goes down your leg. I feel so sorry for her, I swear if it's not one thing it's another. I'm also gonna go and prolly get my hair cut. I thought about going to see a movie since I have 2 movie passes. But I'm gonna wait till Friday there's a scary movie coming out that I want to see. You know I have never even thought of going to the movies by myself, but hell.. I better get back to doing things by myself again.

Pearl Day and Pride is coming up.. I have to remember to request off for those days, so that I can besure I am there. Even tho I don't ride that much at Six Flags I still like to go. And of course I have to go to Pride, That's the Gay Holiday. lol

Besure to check out my pics. The first page has just 1 pic and then "Out and About II" has about 5 and then there are some under "Diva and More"..

Today was my first day back to work. It felt really good being back, I really missed seeing my customers and some of the ppl I work with. I can't count how many times ppl asked me "Where have you been" or "Are you doing okay".. It made me feel real good that ppl actually care or atleast act like they do.

Adrienne & Muffy came to see me as well. It's always good to see them. I have to work tomorrow from 12:30-6 and then I believe I am off, I'm not sure I'll have to check when I go back to work tomorrow.

Anyway... I'm about to get off of here and get ready. Me and Marc are gonna go to the Metro tonite and see Ms. Shawnna Brooks. I'm taking my camera, so I'm sure I'll have plenty of pics to post on my website in the next couple of days. Plus I need some since I have deleted a bunch of them..

Well ALOT of things have happened in the past few days....

Thursday nite Shane (my best friend) tried to kill himself. I don't understand why in the world he would do something like that, after the cussing and lecturing that I got from him. So I had to go to the hospital on Friday morning and make sure he was going to be okay. Thursday I did meet with David and we talked about my job, he's gonna put me back on the schedule for this week. I'm just gonna be worked in as I can be. I did take a step down. I told him right now, I just thought that it was too much and I am wanting to go back to school. So that way I don't have to worry about my schedule as a shift supervisor.

Friday nite me and Marc went out in Atlanta, needless to say that I got really drunk... But it felt SO good to beable to go out and hang out with my friends from the bar. And of course ppl kept asking me "Where have you been" We went to Burkharts, Hoedowns, and then to Underground. Which of course, I hung out in the dressing room most of the nite with all the girls, talking and cutting up with them.

After we got home at about 5am Saturday morning, I don't know what happened but I wanted to call Wayne.. So I did. Of Course he didn't answer, I figured he wouldn't. So I just left him a message. He called me back at about 9:30 and then again at 4:30. So I called him back after I got through running around and doing the stuff I had to do. He really didn't have too much to say but atleast he wasn't yelling and cussing me out this time.

Lastnite me and Marc went back to Atlanta and hung out till 8am this morning. I just woke up about an hr ago. I have to get dressed and get to the store and then I have to do some cleaning when I get back. Plus I need to wash some clothes and hang some more pictures in my room.

I'll be glad when I start to get some checks again.... I wanna go to this new place that opened over here and get some of their pictures. I found this really big clock that I hung in there, I just forgot the damn battery.. lol

I guess I better get off of here and get to moving...