Well I started my other job yesterday. It went okay, I was just really bored. But it's extra money so I can't complain. Then I had to work at starbucks till about 10. I came home and talked to my mom for a little bit. Lee and Shane went out to burkharts for a little bit. I wanted to go up there and hang out with them but I couldn't. So I got online for a little while and chatted with my friends online. Just waisting time till Lee got back home. Then when he got home he signed online and I got to see him on the cam. We talked for a little while then I signed off to go to bed. I kinda got really upset cause he said that he felt like I was pushing him away and that I did not beleive that he wanted to be with me and just me. I do believe him, I want to be with him more than anything in this world. He's what I have been looking for all my life. And the last thing that I want to do is push that away. If I could just let him inside my heart and let him read how I feel. That would be great. Anyway, we talked about that and we both understand each other now..

Tomorrow is 2 WEEKS. It seems like it has been longer than that, lol...His birthday is Wednesday, I dunno what I am going to get him. I'm sure I'll figure out something. Well I have to get off of here and get ready for work.

Okay, for some crazy reason I couldn't sleep. I woke up about 20 mins ago and can't go back to sleep. I am starting a new part time job today at Grand Harbour Imports, which is right beside my work. Just something to help me get caught up and get some Christmas shopping done. I'm kinda nervous about working there, but that is normal when your starting a new job. I know that I am going to be working alot now but that's cool, cause I will beable to get myself straighten out. The only bad thing is i'm not going to beable to see Lee as much as we would like.

I did spend the day with Lee on Wednesday and we both spent the nite with Shane and Kevin. We sat around and drank beer and played cards. Lee got the job at the Pet Company with Shane. So he's going to be staying up there with him for a few days. I'm really glad that he got the job, I know how it is. I'm really glad that I could help him. Well anyway, i'm going to try to get back to sleep.

Me and Lee spent the nite with Shane and Kevin lastnite. We got up this morning/afteroon and went to see Shane at work. Lee is trying to get on with Shane at the Pet Company, I really hope that he gets the job. I have really really enjoyed myself this past weekend, spending it with Lee and us getting to know each other alot better. He met my mom on Friday nite, I haven't had the chance to talk to her and find out what she thought about him. All my friends have met him and they all say that he is a very sweet and goodlooking guy. Which he is!! Well I have to get in the bed, I'm off tomorrow and I am going over to Lee's. We might go up to Shanes for the nite.

Well.. I'm sitting here at Shanes drinking with him and Lee and Kevin. I found the perferct song for me and Lee. So I'm going to add it here for everybody to see.. Things are going VERY well for me and Lee.. I'm very happy, just spending time with him and being with him has made me SO happy. BTW we had a BLAST at backstreet, Liza and Carrie had a very good time and I can't wait till they go back with us.

You know, I don't know what it is
But everything about him is so irresistible

Don't you try to tell me that he's not my type
To hide what I feel inside
When he makes me weak with desire
I know that I'm supposed to make him wait
Let him think I like the chase
But I can't stop fanning the fire
I know I meant to say no

But he's irresistible
Up close and personal
Now inescapable
I can hardly breathe
More than just physical
Deeper than spiritual
His ways are powerful
Irresistible to me

Don't you think I'm trying to tell my heart what's right
That I should really say goodnight
But I just cant stop myself falling
Maybe I'll tell him that I feel the same
That I dont want to play no game Cause when I feel his arms wrapped around me
I know meant to say no

But he's irresistible
Up close and personal
Now inesacpable
I can hardly breathe
More than just physical
Deeper than spiritual
His ways are powerful
Irresistible to me

Can't you see whenever he's close to me
I really find it hard to breathe
He's so irresistible
Baby, you know its more than just spritual
His kisses are powerful
He's so irresistible
You're so irresistible

He's irresistible
Up close and personal
Now inescapable I can hardly breathe
More than just physical
Deeper than spiritual
His ways are powerful
Irresistible to me