I'm at home being bored as hell.. I was going to go over and see Wayne tonite but I didn't have enough gas to get there and get back to work. So I thought that I would stay home tonite. I have tried and tried to call him over and over and he's NOT answering his phone. That's not like him, he must be at home and not have a signal or something. I just can't believe that he didn't call me on his way home or when he got home to let me know that he was at home.

Anyway.. As David at work tells me I am worry too much. Maybe I do, but I love that man to death and I just wanted to talk to him before I went to bed. Like we do every nite.

I have to work tomorrow from 9:30-6 and then I am off on Friday. After I pick up my check I am going to go SPEEDING over to Wayne's work. I'm dying to see him.. Call me crazy, pyscho or whatever... But I'm crazy about him and I can NOT stand it one bit when we are apart from each other. I'm scared to death that I am going to smoother him or something, but then again he tells me that he wants to know how I feel and he wants to know when I have something on my mind. So what am I to do?

Anyway..... I'm gonna go and look at dell computers a little more, I might have to get a new computer period. So I have to figure something out...

YI love WayneY

Well here I am at home again tonite without Wayne. I had to close tonite and I have to be back at work in the morning at 9am. I'm going to go see him tomorrow when I get off work, but he has to work for this other company after he gets off work.

That other company that he works for on the side, I just don't like. I guess b/c they are more of a "last minute" company. They want to fly him here and there and work whenever. I just have to deal with it. I love that boy to death and all I want is for him to better himself. And he says he is with working for them.

Anyway... I'm off Friday, Saturday and Sunday of this weekend.. I get paid on Friday and I know that I am NOT going to have any money left out of my check b/c I have to pay my truck payment and my cell phone. Plus I wanna get some stuff for my scrapbook so that I can finish what I started lastnite.

I was feeling a little frustrated at work today and then I went to lunch and I messaged Wayne to let him know I was on lunch, if he wanted to call me he could. Well he ended up calling me 10 mins before I went back. Which was good, it was so good just to hear his voice.. It made my nite go by so much better. I was in a much better mood after that.

Sometimes I catch myself shaking my head and just Thanking the man up above for sending me Wayne. All the lies and bullshit that I have been told in my life by gay men. I look at Wayne and can't believe that I have someone so sweet and so kind. Someone who's real and someone who wants to be with me. Despite the way I am. I know I get on his nerves sometimes and I know I bug him.. But it's only b/c I love him more than he'll ever know. Lord knows if I was to win the Lottery Wayne would be the luckiest person in the world.

I'm about to go to bed.. I have to be up early in the morning.
YI love Wayne! Y

"Every time our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams
I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you, it just keeps getting better
I Wanna Spend The REST OF MY LIFE with you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you
The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Baby you surround me
You touch every place in my heart
Oh, it feels like the first time every time
I wanna spent the whole night in your eyes
I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you, it just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever and ever"

"Dancin' in the dark
Middle of the night
Takin' your heart
And holdin' it tight
Emotional touch
Touchin' my skin
And askin' you to do
What you've been doing all over again
It's a beautiful thing
Don't think I can keep it all in
I just gotta let you know
What it is that won't let me go
It's your love
It just does something to me
It sends a shock right through me
I can't get enough
And if you wonder about the spell I'm under
Better than I was
More than I am
And all of this happened
By takin' your hand
And who I am now
Is who I wanted to be
And now that we're together
I'm stronger than ever
I'm happy and free
It's a beautiful thing
Don't think I can keep it all in
And if you asked me why I changed
All I gotta do is say your sweet name
It's your love
It just does something to me
It sends a shock right through me
I can't get enough
And if you wonder about the spell I'm under
It's your love"

I never thought I could love someone and want someone SO much as I do Wayne, just like I tell him.... He's my Angel sent from above...He truely shows me how it feels to be loved and wanted and like I have said before I thank GOD everyday for giving me Wayne.

Friday nite Me, Wayne, Jim, & Terrie went out to Underground Atlanta for New Years Eve. Charlie Brown's Show moved down there. We had a good time, I really enjoyed the new place. But most of all I enjoyed having Wayne there with me. I took some pics but was unable to get them on a disc thanks to where I got them developed and I didn't take my new camera cause I was scraed of losing it.

I had a really good time Friday nite. Then Saturday I went to work with Wayne and helped him out all day. I really enjoy going to help him and watching him work. Maybe I'll learn a thing or two.

I was working on my scrapbook that Wayne got me and I thought that I would come in the living room and write in my journal since I haven't in a few days. I went back to work today and I dreaded it, after being off for 3 days I didn't want to go back. But I have bills that I have to pay.

This coming up weekend I am off Friday, Saturday, & Sunday. I have to help Wayne with his wedding show. I'm going to take pics with my new camera. Anyway....I'm about to get off of here Wayne is suppose to call me before he goes to bed, I don't want to miss his call.